Inside Out.

Sometimes it is better to drive away and not know where you are going to, than to know you are coming home to a place you find heavy in your heart to live in. It feels this way sometimes. And I ask Ryan if we can stay longer in the car. Just sitting there. (I've mentioned this before) Sometimes I imagine that the road ahead us is never ending. It is just a long drive, period. And I find myself resting. For a few moments, It will almost seem like time has stopped and there is total silence. Sorry for the seemingly depressing blog, I guess I sort of lied then when i said it usually takes more to make me cry,or it takes so much more to break me. I said I've lived my life this far and I've always been strong and I'll always be strong. If you believed that 100%, tanga! Uto uto! ;p Sleeping Beauty made me cry, Beauty and the Beast made me cry, in short, even cartoons make me cry. So dapat 99% lang, so I can vent a little every now and then.

I thought that in my life, whats hard was putting up a happy face all the time, but just now i realized, Its harder to give in to whats bothering us deep inside and let it show a little kahit minsan lang, and not be analyzed or judged. (",)

~~The last of the Drama Blogs Part III~~

Saturday noon

I realized I like saying 'actually' in a repeat manner, meaning i tend to say 'actually' every other sentence when i am actually (see?) speaking to anybody. Maybe I am more concious when im writing or composing a blog, than when i am literally in the act of conversing orally/verbally or maybe i havent reviewed my previous blogs yet for traces of the said- annoying 'actually'. hahaha :p. okay.

Last night we watched 'Eyes Wide Shut' an old film starring Nicole Kidman and Tom Cruise. Story was somewhat dragging, I think it was trying to portray poetry when it gave 10 seconds to show Tom cruise arriving in a cab to a place, when it spent 5 seconds each to take a shot of 'doubt' and other reactions by the characters. DRAGGING rather than poetic. I like the stars though. I think during the time when they were running this in the Cinemas, it was a hit movie. Considering before, showing a lot of skin is a bold act by the stars of the movie, I think thats what made the jaws dropped back then. In fairness, the way they were all naked was effectively un-porno and whatever trouble they were trying to implicate was read and can be read by the viewers. But given today's execution of films and scenes, it was lacking (if you dont agree, well its just me then) :) I hated how when the story started to become interesting, that was the end. Maybe that was part of the plot. The troubles were implicated, the conspiracy proven but the ending was rather lacking. But its no wonder why Tom made Nicole, Mrs. cruise back then.

Ill be back... my cousin needs to chat with the boyfriend. :)