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The fastest way to travel is by candle light. ~Stardust

The fastest way to travel is by dreams. It is weird that after im not sure if its been 11 or 12 years already, i suddenly dreamt of someone from way way back. I dreamt of S--n. o di ba parang mapapatanong ka baket (kaya nga weird ang dating)? I woke up feeling a little weird, I just cant remember when was the last time i saw him, or when was the last time i heard of him or when was the last time i even remembered him, until last monday. It made me think back, and it made me remember bits of the past when we were still very young including how i used to be and nag rewind lang ang 1st year high.

REWIND MODE: Sayo' ko pala nakilala si Chito. Ang ganda ng mga drawings mo. Ang cute ng wave ng buhok mo, slightly kulot. I never saw you play your guitar na as in play it. You were the first boy to ever really make me feel beautiful, although i always seemed aloof ( literal, tinatakbuhan ko, mayron pa nga sa stairs eh hahaha jologs ko). Thank you. Things I never got to say before kasi super bata pa ako noon, i wouldnt exactly know how to respond, how to say it, what to do, so i just did what was easier, nothing and just be bata batuta. ;) i just turned 13 naman kasi. he was 16. and yes,Hindi naging kami. and yes who knows if nabulag lang siya noon ;p

hephephep..sumbong kayo sa lelang niyo, wala akong paki. Its innocent and Its not like i meditated on it. There were special people in my life, that i was not able to appreciate on time, it took a long time and a dream but it was a blessing din to me to see the forgotten moments in my life kasi no matter how big or small or how long or short the moments.. it was a part of my story. Blame it on my dream, for making me remember.
hephephep again, hindi ako nagpapantasya, just remembering by coincidence.fyi. Im faithful to Ryan naman (ha! very defensive ba?;p),anyway I even shared this to ryan saying "i wonder why hindi ko siya sinagot noon , to think crush ko naman siya dati?". Nagtaka lang ako, ako mismo minsan pag naalala ko yung sarili ko nung 13 pa ako, naisip ko 'anu bang iniisip ko nung mga panahong yun'?hmm.. di ko na maalala. Im thankful Hindi makitid si Ryan, that's why its easy for me to be honest with him and say whats on my mind, he doesnt shut me up, he listens and even asks questions. If in the case there is something i feel I cannot tell to him, then its definitely a wrong feeling in the first place..so far wala pa naman. and thanks din to Ryan, i dont know any other guy who i could tell the biggest and littlest things to, na hindi ko kailangan mag alala. Like Ang gwapo ni Gong Chan. ni Heath Ledger hahaha :)
Ryan... He loves me just the way i want to and more...

Well. Anyway to S--n...wherever you are, i hope you're doing okay...kamusta, always be safe.
God bless to you and your kids (most probably positive) and to the woman who makes everything worthwhile.

grabeh,at the end of it all, sa mga katangahan ko noon, like tatakbo sa stairs ng naka paa, hay... i wonder what last impression i left you dati. sana hindi ganun ka-sama. *wink*

ay nako sana naman wala ng iba pang mag multo sa mga panaginip ko, masaya na akong nanaginip ng action/horror/o mga suspense, minsan nga celebrity pa friends ko,kaso nga lang imagine mga taga 7 eh maka channel 2 naman ako.. weird. :p