My life is sporadic, it seems only I am consistent. Why do i consistently jinx myself to doing the wrong things and saying the wrong things at the right moments. Walang katapusan ba ang pagiging badong? Ito ba ay isang sumpa? I bring the infinite unbelievable bloopers into my life. I am the one to blame...or God (you're the boss) or Karma,who knows. Honestly I'm not too sure if I'm fine with it because I'm used to it or if i really am fine with it. But I can not believe what happened to me last night. It is truly(so far) the craziest most mortifying thing I have ever done in my life. And although I admit that I can be very garrulous. My lips are sealed forever. Even I freaked myself out. If it was funny or if it wasnt, that is least of my concerns. (Why God...why? ;p)
But for every wrong (CRAzzzzZZZyyyy) thing that happens, Life shows us something good at the same time. In serious relationships,(aside from other general connotations of life such as women being a pain in the ass and men being real stubborn migraines and headaches) women are supposed to be the one neck deep in love and men just knee-deep. Women remember the dates and men don't. We hold on to our men and look at them with forever in our eyes. Forever is just the like most exciting thing in the world, while it is the men that are supposed to have cold feet about it. But lately I'm not too sure I am one of those women I just mentioned. I don't know if that makes me a bad girl but i do feel a pang of guilt when I think about it. Hell, given the choice, I would love to be like all the other stepford girlfriends 24/7, but i can only be me (babadong badong). I am still loving (fyi. to be taken as a verb), but i have forgotten how it feels like to be in love. To have that silly smirk on my face the whole day, to have the world collapse around me and not notice. Am I being unfair (rhetorical question). Just to clarify though, I am not trying to search the world for a new guy or worst... a willing quirido ;p, my point is, the word in-love has eluded me and I just wish he could take me there again (or are chocolate stages lost forever?). I love him and I just wish in my heart that I could love him the same volume he loves me. He makes me feel perfect. I know there is no one else who could love me the way he does. He loves me, amazingly...despite my topaks.(I unscrew the nails that holds your brains together-that crazy). He deserves the same kind of love. I'm working on it, he knows that. Im retracing my steps.
and yung na nga..Last night when the craziest (but wholesome) thing happened to me, he was there. I was freaking out and he was laughing. I hit him a few times for doing so. The whole scene was really confusing. It is like what i have already said before in my other blog, that everything i do, he looks at me like im the cutest little fluffy bunny in the world. Minsan hindi ko alam kung sino ang praning. Ako ba o siya? o pareho kami? Timong ka. Timong. ;p but i watched him and waited what he was going to do and he did what no other boyfriend could have done as a first reaction ( as based on subjective perception) and at that moment
I was reminded (by God...or Karma, who knows), that even when i said that i have forgotten whats its like to be in love,I remembered why i fell in love with him in the first place.
Dati noong magulo pa ang lahat sa amin.
I stayed beside him while the world said I was the stupidest stupidest girl in the world (if there is such a word as 'stupidest')
Ang lovey dovey sabi ko naman noon : Even if love is full of thorns, embrace it. For in between those thorns is a love worth all the pain. (inspirational liner was not composed by me, fyi.)
So i guess the saying's true. :)
And if there is a love worth all the pain.
there will always be a love worth staying for.
~~Love me the way i are(part II)~~
But for every wrong (CRAzzzzZZZyyyy) thing that happens, Life shows us something good at the same time. In serious relationships,(aside from other general connotations of life such as women being a pain in the ass and men being real stubborn migraines and headaches) women are supposed to be the one neck deep in love and men just knee-deep. Women remember the dates and men don't. We hold on to our men and look at them with forever in our eyes. Forever is just the like most exciting thing in the world, while it is the men that are supposed to have cold feet about it. But lately I'm not too sure I am one of those women I just mentioned. I don't know if that makes me a bad girl but i do feel a pang of guilt when I think about it. Hell, given the choice, I would love to be like all the other stepford girlfriends 24/7, but i can only be me (babadong badong). I am still loving (fyi. to be taken as a verb), but i have forgotten how it feels like to be in love. To have that silly smirk on my face the whole day, to have the world collapse around me and not notice. Am I being unfair (rhetorical question). Just to clarify though, I am not trying to search the world for a new guy or worst... a willing quirido ;p, my point is, the word in-love has eluded me and I just wish he could take me there again (or are chocolate stages lost forever?). I love him and I just wish in my heart that I could love him the same volume he loves me. He makes me feel perfect. I know there is no one else who could love me the way he does. He loves me, amazingly...despite my topaks.(I unscrew the nails that holds your brains together-that crazy). He deserves the same kind of love. I'm working on it, he knows that. Im retracing my steps.
and yung na nga..Last night when the craziest (but wholesome) thing happened to me, he was there. I was freaking out and he was laughing. I hit him a few times for doing so. The whole scene was really confusing. It is like what i have already said before in my other blog, that everything i do, he looks at me like im the cutest little fluffy bunny in the world. Minsan hindi ko alam kung sino ang praning. Ako ba o siya? o pareho kami? Timong ka. Timong. ;p but i watched him and waited what he was going to do and he did what no other boyfriend could have done as a first reaction ( as based on subjective perception) and at that moment
I was reminded (by God...or Karma, who knows), that even when i said that i have forgotten whats its like to be in love,I remembered why i fell in love with him in the first place.Dati noong magulo pa ang lahat sa amin.
I stayed beside him while the world said I was the stupidest stupidest girl in the world (if there is such a word as 'stupidest')
Ang lovey dovey sabi ko naman noon : Even if love is full of thorns, embrace it. For in between those thorns is a love worth all the pain. (inspirational liner was not composed by me, fyi.)
So i guess the saying's true. :)
And if there is a love worth all the pain.
there will always be a love worth staying for.
~~Love me the way i are(part II)~~
Happy heartS everybody!!
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