Dear Ate Charo part II

Finally nag nursing na ako pero wala na raw demand. ang badong talaga ng script ng buhay ko. However, I still wouldnt skip a day of my life. Naisip ko, kahit maging malungkot pa o mahirap, sa palagay ko my life will always be beautiful and makulay. Every piece is special (agree?). Minsan naisip ko rin na panu kung mamatay ako ng maaga. (emote. Tapos naman na ang Nov. 1) una sabi ko wag sana, pero nung huli sabi ko...malamang wag pa rin. Pero kung no choice, siguro dapat isipin ko na rin na perfect naman na ang lahat, wag lang ako mamatay in the ff manners:
1. ma murder, ma massacre, ma hostel, ma hills have eyes
2. ma accident
3. malunod, masunog
4. mabangungot, ma impacho
5. mahulog sa bangin face first
6. madulas sa c.r at mabagok na walang damit at hindi nakapag exercise.
7. malason, masaksak, mabulunan, mamatay sa init ng araw, etc etc

Parang gusto ko ng maging immortal. hehehe sabi nga ni Czesca habang nanunuod kami ng D y o s a:
Czesca "mommy ikaw ba yun?" (tinuro si anne curtisssss)
Ryan (tawa ng tawa) "ngeh ang saya naman nung isa jan kung siya yan"
Ako "Oo Czesca, ako yun, mommy nga yan"
Czesca "asan ako jan?"
Aba ambisyosa din.
Ako " ayun ka nasa kwarto ka, baka tulog ka"
Ang cute pa ni Czesca, kagabi kinakausap niya yung elmo doll niya eh
sabi ko kasi "pupunta dito sa bahay si elmo-big, wala siyang damit, anu susuotin niya?"
sumagot naman tong isa, as if reassuring elmo
Czesca: "buy kita bago damit plastic elmo"
Natawa ako, kasi plastic nga naman ang damit ni Elmo namin, binalot ko kasi sa plastic cover kasi mashado mabalahibo.little badong din pala.

Mabalik tayo sa usapang dead. Sabi ko nga kay ka,
ako : pag namatay ako pagawan mo ako ng bulaklak, lagyan mo ng "from your secret admirer heath ledger"

aba kokontra pa

sabi sa akin "patay na kaya si heath ledger"
wala kasing pakelamanan.gusto ko eh. lagyan mo kung di magmumulto ako.

Sa totoo, death is no laughing matter, i should know this much, kasi when my sister died at age of almost 3, every second of watching her die infront of me, was like a minute off from life itself. Every second lasted forever and yet it ran out so fast. It seemed so unreal but it is still as real now as it was that night. Sweet dreams Rain. Sweet dreams.

The Way to Keep Me.

dont lose me.
i know you question me.
i question me too.
but you know i tell you everything.
and i thank you for your patience.

i know you said you'd make me stay.
make me stay forever.
but that's not the way i want it now.
dont scare me with foreverrrrrrrrrrrr.

because we only need to make it...
one day at a time.

so when you tell a joke, i'd remember i laughed.
so when we are here we'll know we are
and when you make me happy you'll see me when i smile
let me take the plunge every day.
make me fall in love.

so dont give me forever.
where colors dont change and time just makes you old.

give me one day at a time.
and keep me forever.

FoReVeR LoVe *wink

When Im being a kid and you are losing it,
and Im pouting like I do holding back my baby tears,
You will take one long hard look at me
And when i look back at you, my face is as it is.
my stubborness as it is, then everything comes back to you
and you smile at me like im the cutest thing you have ever seen.
Then you hug me and you tell me im the cutest thing you have ever seen.
and you say you love me like the cutest thing you will ever see.
I wonder if we can be like this forever.
As childishly in love like this forever.

When you are eating and im eating off your plate,
and you start complaining because im eating more share..
and i look at you like hate is about to well up in my eyes,
you will spoon feed me the best part of the dish
you pour me my glass of cold juice..Im happy again,
and I love you.
Until after a few days when i start feeling fat,
i depress myself with reminders, i do not fit in my clothes no more,
but then you put your arms around me and tell me how lucky you are,
I am your beauty queen and you make me feel like one every day.

And when you touch your scars which ruined your abs,
and you look at me and ask if you are pogi...
I tell you how exactly the same you are to me
the first time we looked at each other.
Sinong Pogi? shempre Ako.
I wonder if we can see each other this way forever
As ageless and timeless in love like this forever.

Bolero and Bolera like this forever.

When you dont listen and then you get sick,

I get mad , worried at the same time,

and then when i dont listen and i get sick,

you get mad when i lie im already fine,

but what i wonder about is if we could live forever

if i can still lay my head on your shoulder and see our grandchildren together..

looking forward.. we could do just that.

When i tell you to wake me up in the morning
and i hate you for doing so in the morning,

we wonder why we are so annoying :)
The intensity has never been shaken.
All my wonderings come to cease,
That I could live like this forever.
and we could love like this today.

Because Forever is simply every tomorrow.
If it is not ours to tell...Maybe the day today can.