Balatan

No More Glutathione questions please. The answer is No. It is still entirely & definitely humbly DNA heritage. And certainly, it’s not all rainbows; there are also rains to being this white (and I’m not even the whitest of them all, this recognition- if there is actually any- is probably for Snowhite alone)chaka promise hindi ako siguro super puti. Anyway as for the rains.., so far the latest is being falsely doubted artificial too many times in a day by random people.tsk tsk tsk.

Example:
Girl: Anung Glutha pills ang tinetake mo?
Me: Ah hindeh wala
Girl: Original yan?
Me: Ah sa mommy ko toh namana
Girl: Owws, hindi ka nag pa bleach?
Me: hindeh
Girl: Ah talaga ha.


Iba when people keep assuming if you were dermatologically enhanced kung hindi naman.

It can be uhm...a little mildly exasperating (even if one meant well).
Hindi nga patas eh, can I go up to people and ask them “uy anu tine-take mo? Uling?” o di ba hindeh. Hay.

It is somewhat the same as going up to someone with a really pricey original designer’s bag worth half the value of your house and asking the person “ Class A ba yan or Class B sa greenhills mo binili?”. Now you have an idea. So just be gentle with the assumptions because chances are, not everyone is up to chasing casper's transparency.

I mean it’s not like I haven’t heard the ‘naliligo ka sa gatas’-joke too many times. These are okay. I remember nung high school (Music. Pasok. Sharon Cuneta: “high school life oh my high school life how exciting kay saya...") some of my classmates, when they walk pass me on my seat they will stretch out their wrist to near my lips, telling me if I needed blood, I could suck blood from it. Haha mga kolokoy. Labanos. Anak Araw. White lady. Glow in the Dark. I think I’ve heard it all. Actually I’ve just about heard it all pala yesterday lang. During our health teaching in the community:

Tao 1: Naliligo ata sa gatas yan eh
Tao 2: Hindi sa gatas. Mukhang binuhusan ng Boysen

Bago yun ah. Boysen.

The skin is the naked shirt of our beauty. So Hubaran na toh. Joke. Pang pagulo lang ;) hehe
Deh but it is.
We will not always be flawless, but we will always be beautiful (anu man ang kulay natin)
Kung may lait ang itim, may pintas din ang puti.
Because the world is not perfect
But it is fair after all.

TEDIUM, MY LOVE ('',)

actually tedium just means boredom. ;p just trying to make the title catchy. ;p hahaha

Pakisilaban naman ng apoy ang inyong mga sarili now na please para ma entertain naman ako. I am super bored (Zzzzzzz). I've browsed through my whole cyberlife in this little space i have at the office.
I have invited the whole class sa friendster. (or so i think)

Nag cyber window shopping. Nag google at nalaman ko ngang Britney owns a pink wig. Its as exciting as today. wheee.

Nag delete na rin ako ng forever unread millions of messages sa inboxes ng 3 yahoo mail ko. (most of them newsletters lang)

At Kasama nga sa mga nasagap kong unread messages ay two indecent proposal PM sa tagged.com, one from Osama Bin laden and one from a Dirty Old Man,haha kamukha kasi ni Osama yung isa and yung isa D.O.M as is and as in.

See at may account pala ako dun sa tagged.com, nakalimutan ko nga na meron pala eh. Anyways, so I checked to see kung mukhang pang porno ba ang primary pic na nailagay ko dun, hindi naman ah. Headshot nga lang yun in sepia and hindi pa ako naka smile. Parang pang ID pa nga eh, luma na kasi. Ang mundong ito nga naman puno ng M.

B o R i N g.

Im sorry if i cannot offer you smart wits at the moment, just my last energy of available humor for the day is all i have in hand right now. (and im not even sure if its humorous at all ;p)

This blog is an absolute nonsense but its exactly where i am now, so if you're reading this right now Im probably not here at this moment anymore pero para ka na ring dumaan sa buhay ko at this time, at this minute, at this very second.Welcome to the halls of boredom. Na serendipity na tayo. Its fate. ;p So whoever you are (reader), I hope you're having a more exciting day. :)

Nga pala, here's to share an old photo i found stocked in one of my emails:
I dont really know what i was doing in this picture anymore ,although it really looks like im munching on paper, please dont believe your eyes. ;p Im guessing I was bored din nung time na yan, Im usually more sophisticated *haha...

Nuts why else?

Lumilindol.

"Lumilindol", thats usually the first thing we tell the person next to us in a sudden occurence like this.We were browsing for online stores when we felt the earthquake. It lasted for a few seconds and I think we (mhaan and I) just stood still until it stopped. -- around 1 pm 11/27/07 Intesity 5.4 (as according to the news)

One of the most unforgettable earthquakes in my life happened some time during high school and we were all already in bed. The cabinet doors started to swing open and close,and when you look out the windows, wires were sparkling lights, glitching. The electricity went out. The whole building was dancing. The old crystal chandelier in the living room was swaying. It was one of the best time the wind chimes can sound the scariest.When it didnt stop after some time, it didnt look safe anymore so we decided it was best to leave. They told me to bring only the most important things. And its funny because looking back now, I remember grabbing only for my rubber shoes, my high school volleyball varsity uniform and my poems. Lumilindol na game pa rin ang iniisip.

Thank God for his grace.

Earthquakes, dont just shake the ground, they shake lives of people and they shake our hearts to remembering those most important to us. (Anep! :p biglang nagka-moral value? ;p haha at least kahit one sentence sa blog na to nag ka sense. ;p)

All Mixed Up.

a page each day off the calendar.
a portion of my brain for hannibal.
one beat less for this heart
each passing day i spent away.
away from the poems i used to silly write,
away from the colors that used to give me life.
The tick of the clock haunts me
and the tock of the clock taunts me
Dummified.

ay nako. wala toh. nag chichikahan kasi kami ni mhaan nung lunch break about things we want to do, long term career paths we want to take, and im sort of off the road. :)

inner struggling.
why. kasi im talking positive, thinking positive, feeling negative. hahaha :) or the other way around. bast hindi tally. ;)
Im just traumatized by how unpredictable my life's swings has been. Who would have thought Id find myself in the office doing paperworks, monitoring shipments,calculating forecasts,emails, involving myself with terms, Proforma Invoice,FA, Ex-works, ROHS, Accounting Terms, Raw Materials, NG defects - burr/short shot/ sink mark/ etc,Sales out of Never-existed in my life part numbers of the most oblivious items , industrial / mechanical / assembly companies shop for, etc.etc..
I never thought Id be in this chair. so business-ly. ( :P I re-invented this term for this one time use only,dont worry.) Eventhough the new job allows me to be the more artsy me, It hasnt been finalized.The scope, the offer, the training in Vietnam. Its still all a question to me... Everything is a 'will wait and see' status. Sure i know the training will be good for me if it pursues,Im taking it... but can i just say im somewhat scared and nervous also, imagine... facing long time big time professionals.. age ranging from 35-45 yrs old or older, all looking really really dead serious and I remember myself. Im in my early 20's, who is more used to wearing jeans and flats, clamps her hair whatever way, under-experienced, shit they'll know Im a rookie. I am a rookie. --ill do my best, compensate?--Im like alin alin alin ang naiba, piliin kung alin ang naiba - Batibot ;) (warning: typical inferiority complex attack :P) of course when the time comes they wont see me like that, but deep inside..chaos. hahaha ;) But until then, the unknown will seem alien and scary to me. Inevitably when you are already there, it seems all you can do is just do it or dont do it and lose your job and be stupid. :) I know its normal for everyone to feel this way sometimes, even the New boss will feel butterflies in his/her stomach during first brainstorming activity right? or not hahaha :)

inner struggling number 2.
I really want to go back to school.
I plan to do both, work and study, both full time.
conflicting schedules will be hard, what if have to go somewhere and i really cant miss a class?
see. see. see. priorities are all mixed up.

finish what i started which is okay or take a new course (AGAIN)this time take something i want.
what do i want, a lot of things parents tell you are stupid courses. hahaha :)a choice of Fine Arts. or something leaning towards it. Lifestyle. Humanitarian. Why the hell did i leave Sociology if ill end up looking for it someday. who knew? my bad.
Computer programming is not exactly my beloved choice. But only 2 years more and Im finally done.
And stock knowledge i have from it has done me good in my job right now. (considering its mere basics only)
Another sentence: Im the C.A student who joins a fine arts contest? wins it. do you think im lost or can i make this work for me? who sits infront of my computer to make the buttons work, a little later comes up with a song, am i lost?
I'd like to try making C.A work for me. There has to be some way. hahaha Im really mixed up.

The only thing not confusing in my life right now is ryan, me and czesca. that is one solid angle im looking at :P

Until then. Blog ends here. :)

Just Do It. - Nike

Impossible is Nothing.- Adidas