BoYPALPAK

If in the case it doesnt get published in our school paper due to lack of space as i was told. Because its going to be more like a newsletter and not really broadsheet type. Sayang naman so I decided I'll just post it here. I submitted this article last sem. Its my thoughts on life reflecting some of my ideals.( I know that most of the time, I blog about only funny things that happens to me, but its simply because I also read back on my blogs and i guess that whenever i do, i want to be reminded of happy thoughts, because often its the pains in our lives that are easier to remember,right? and the world is already full of that, so I want to contribute something else. I also hope that when people read pass them, it can evoke smiles (haha ambitious!), but its just so that this happy thoughts will no longer be mine alone forever. Its out of a good heart, promise ) So here goes:

Boy Palpak; Changing Your Stars.

Cherryl Zuno

The world may size you up based on the mistakes you have committed, judge your capacity based on the wrong turns you have taken and envisage your future based on your past, but your heart shall tell you they are mistaken because we are not what life makes of us, we are what we make out of life, all we need to do is find the courage to have faith. It is factual to say it is easier said than done, when sometimes it feels like life will always hit you where it will hurt, break you when you are already shattered, blind you when it is already dark and lose you when you are already lost but if you trust your heart and you pick yourself up no matter how hard the blows, you will always find yourself, still standing.

It all sounds cliché, but it is true. People are not merely hindered and limited by their errors but mostly by what they believe it has made them become. Thus it is important that we remember who we are and that we are more than our mistakes. So Instead of regrets, learn; instead of self-pity, forgive; and instead of moving on, do better. In this way, live your life and not the other way around. It will not mean that life from then on will be cherries and perfect, sure, even when you do this, mistakes, disappointments, failures and a series of heartaches will still follow you where the road is slippery and then the world may once again size you up even worst but if you keep your faith, you will always find your way back.

Everyday we make decisions in our lives, and it’s not hard to eventually make a wrong one, but it is definitely not easier to always make the right ones. We have to understand that bad things happen, it messes up our lives but it should not mess us up.

An eight year old girl once said that things will someday change for the better; she watched as everything around her collapsed domino style and she heard them when they said nothing good and nothing much can come out of such a chaotic life. Going through some dark alleys of life growing up, she learned that at times you will reach out for anybody but nobody will be there and that even you will tire out of trying to understand why things happen when they do, that it is hard to be good when everything else has gone bad and hard to see the right choices when they are not even there. ‘She’ll be lost forever’ whispers alleged.

Let us find out if they were right. How do you change your stars when every night is starless? ~ Seek them in your eyes, don’t let their glow die. This girl is in fact yours truly, still learning, still forgiving and definitely doing better.

It is God’s grace that he routes our lives in sometimes the most complicated ways. It is after all in our greatest adversities that we truly learn to recognize the most beautiful things. So although life is not perfect, live it, simply because it is yours.

haha medyo baduy ata yung third and second to the last paragraph...but its true. hahaha

Originally composed Last July 12, 2008

Dear Ate Charo part II

Finally nag nursing na ako pero wala na raw demand. ang badong talaga ng script ng buhay ko. However, I still wouldnt skip a day of my life. Naisip ko, kahit maging malungkot pa o mahirap, sa palagay ko my life will always be beautiful and makulay. Every piece is special (agree?). Minsan naisip ko rin na panu kung mamatay ako ng maaga. (emote. Tapos naman na ang Nov. 1) una sabi ko wag sana, pero nung huli sabi ko...malamang wag pa rin. Pero kung no choice, siguro dapat isipin ko na rin na perfect naman na ang lahat, wag lang ako mamatay in the ff manners:
1. ma murder, ma massacre, ma hostel, ma hills have eyes
2. ma accident
3. malunod, masunog
4. mabangungot, ma impacho
5. mahulog sa bangin face first
6. madulas sa c.r at mabagok na walang damit at hindi nakapag exercise.
7. malason, masaksak, mabulunan, mamatay sa init ng araw, etc etc

Parang gusto ko ng maging immortal. hehehe sabi nga ni Czesca habang nanunuod kami ng D y o s a:
Czesca "mommy ikaw ba yun?" (tinuro si anne curtisssss)
Ryan (tawa ng tawa) "ngeh ang saya naman nung isa jan kung siya yan"
Ako "Oo Czesca, ako yun, mommy nga yan"
Czesca "asan ako jan?"
Aba ambisyosa din.
Ako " ayun ka nasa kwarto ka, baka tulog ka"
Ang cute pa ni Czesca, kagabi kinakausap niya yung elmo doll niya eh
sabi ko kasi "pupunta dito sa bahay si elmo-big, wala siyang damit, anu susuotin niya?"
sumagot naman tong isa, as if reassuring elmo
Czesca: "buy kita bago damit plastic elmo"
Natawa ako, kasi plastic nga naman ang damit ni Elmo namin, binalot ko kasi sa plastic cover kasi mashado mabalahibo.little badong din pala.

Mabalik tayo sa usapang dead. Sabi ko nga kay ka,
ako : pag namatay ako pagawan mo ako ng bulaklak, lagyan mo ng "from your secret admirer heath ledger"

aba kokontra pa

sabi sa akin "patay na kaya si heath ledger"
wala kasing pakelamanan.gusto ko eh. lagyan mo kung di magmumulto ako.

Sa totoo, death is no laughing matter, i should know this much, kasi when my sister died at age of almost 3, every second of watching her die infront of me, was like a minute off from life itself. Every second lasted forever and yet it ran out so fast. It seemed so unreal but it is still as real now as it was that night. Sweet dreams Rain. Sweet dreams.

Dancer Ako. Starting Kagabi.

Dancer ako. DANCER.

Sumayaw ako ng “break the ice”. Wala namang choreo. Kung anu-ano lang. At ang body movements.......... Ro-Bo-Tic. Hahaha At Iniipit ko lang sa shorts ko yung ipod kasi walang bulsa. (Pag nag speakers,mabubuking nila ako sa bahay.) Masaya rin ha. Kahit autistic ang dating Tumigil na lang ako when something in me snapped. (other than my brains, that is.) Ang masaklap hindi buto, parang bituka ko nalaglag. Panu ba naman, shempre when you’re alone, nobody there to be awkward of, nagpaka pure energy ako. Sayang din ang exercise. ARAY!, It was so painful, it kept me lying on my stomach for a good few minutes. I tried elevating my legs, sitting, lying on my back and standing still pero mas sumakit. Pero shempre, Pag labas ng kwarto…parang walang nangyari.(Pag tinanong bakit pawis, mainit lang kasi)- I slept with a handful of stop-pain ointment applied to my lower back that night. Experience enjoyed. Lesson learned. Dancer ako in my dreams.

Usually kasi we don’t have that same amount of courage when nobody is looking, than when someone is actually watching us. To cut it short, what im saying is,whatever it is you want to do with your life. Whether it be silly or sillier, hopefully not something evil though,..do better than me. Just do it, it could put you in mental hospital who knows. joke. Hindeh its just to say, we should try to enjoy life more di ba. Its already a stressful world, we need you to make it more stressful...hehehe naprapraning over here.

Minsan talaga masamang maiwan mag isa.

At sa totoo wala akong point. Nagkwento lang ako.

Goodnight.

Balatan

No More Glutathione questions please. The answer is No. It is still entirely & definitely humbly DNA heritage. And certainly, it’s not all rainbows; there are also rains to being this white (and I’m not even the whitest of them all, this recognition- if there is actually any- is probably for Snowhite alone)chaka promise hindi ako siguro super puti. Anyway as for the rains.., so far the latest is being falsely doubted artificial too many times in a day by random people.tsk tsk tsk.

Example:
Girl: Anung Glutha pills ang tinetake mo?
Me: Ah hindeh wala
Girl: Original yan?
Me: Ah sa mommy ko toh namana
Girl: Owws, hindi ka nag pa bleach?
Me: hindeh
Girl: Ah talaga ha.


Iba when people keep assuming if you were dermatologically enhanced kung hindi naman.

It can be uhm...a little mildly exasperating (even if one meant well).
Hindi nga patas eh, can I go up to people and ask them “uy anu tine-take mo? Uling?” o di ba hindeh. Hay.

It is somewhat the same as going up to someone with a really pricey original designer’s bag worth half the value of your house and asking the person “ Class A ba yan or Class B sa greenhills mo binili?”. Now you have an idea. So just be gentle with the assumptions because chances are, not everyone is up to chasing casper's transparency.

I mean it’s not like I haven’t heard the ‘naliligo ka sa gatas’-joke too many times. These are okay. I remember nung high school (Music. Pasok. Sharon Cuneta: “high school life oh my high school life how exciting kay saya...") some of my classmates, when they walk pass me on my seat they will stretch out their wrist to near my lips, telling me if I needed blood, I could suck blood from it. Haha mga kolokoy. Labanos. Anak Araw. White lady. Glow in the Dark. I think I’ve heard it all. Actually I’ve just about heard it all pala yesterday lang. During our health teaching in the community:

Tao 1: Naliligo ata sa gatas yan eh
Tao 2: Hindi sa gatas. Mukhang binuhusan ng Boysen

Bago yun ah. Boysen.

The skin is the naked shirt of our beauty. So Hubaran na toh. Joke. Pang pagulo lang ;) hehe
Deh but it is.
We will not always be flawless, but we will always be beautiful (anu man ang kulay natin)
Kung may lait ang itim, may pintas din ang puti.
Because the world is not perfect
But it is fair after all.

Bad Things Happen~Wag Pasaway~

The car flew and tumbled, while the screams coming from it halted as it stopped.. knocked over.

My cousin met an accident last night around 1 am while driving the colossal fire truck of their station (he’s been a fire volunteer ever since man discovered fire ~that long). Their team was responding to a fire in Cubao QC. The Collision sent the intersecting vehicle whose body is similar to the old Tamaraw FX type (I forgot the name of the exact model), soaring and doing a 360 tumble twice. In it were 5 people, the driver being an old man of around 70 yrs old and the youngest passenger being only 12. The vehicle attempted to race past in between the two fire trucks but actually got smashed by the second truck (the one my cousin was driving). Hearing the story is already enough for me to picture out the brutal scene that took place. It was, as admitted by both sides… an unfortunate accident. The injured parties are still at the hospital and my cousin along with his team hasn’t slept a wink. They were at the hospital all night and just came home to get some things and they are now back at the hospital again.

Anak ng Tinae! (ipot) Please be mindful when you are driving, especially when you have passengers with you. Do not disregard siren alarms (although minsan abuso ang ibang may wang-wang, just check first and judge on the visuals before you opt to disregard if ever) and not be oblivious to a social situation. Do not race with threatening vehicles just to save a few minutes of time, instead save yourself a few more minutes of life. There is no winner in circumstances like this, both parties are burdened except kung halang ang kaluluwa mo and Ulul ka lang talaga. There goes the Ulol again. Sorry.

When I was younger I didn’t care much for accidents. They were only pictures of tragic adventures in my mind, and a predicament that can happen to anybody except to me or to people I know. It was all too unreal to take seriously but as life goes by ,these once unfamiliar misfortunes will come knocking at your fate, and you start realizing that bad things do happen and it can happen to you. And while we can believe that all things are destined and even argue that there is no such thing as an accident in this world, it wouldn’t hurt to take a little caution every now and then, and value the worth you give to your life.

How To Say Ulol When In The Car

Kanta lang ako ng kanta, singer ba ako? Ahahaha. Dati wala akong paki basta gusto ko kumanta, I’ll sing right then and there. Kawawa naman ang mga ears ng aking listeners. ;p ahaha Ngayon shy na ako, I do my concerts only when Im in the car. (Hindi pwede sa banyo, maririning ka ng kapitbahay.) Siguro na-realize ko na, wala naman akong talent. Marunong lang. hehehe :P Kahit pag pinapainit ko lang yung makina, andun lang ako sa loob, Hindi ko na binubuksan yung ilaw, para hindi ako makita sa loob. Nakaupo lang sa loob, kumakanta parang tanga. =p (im not proud of it, you’ll have to thank boredom for making me share it now) Natatangi ang mga simpleng trip ko sa buhay. PS: ah yun lang nga pala ang alam ko, run the engine on. Pero hindi aandar ;p ahahaha. Ignorance is bliss (in some cases). The car’s alarm will go off a few times bago ko ma stable yung key in it and finally after some twists and turns, okay na. I guess driving is a little scary for me just as swimming have always been (subjectively). Pakiramdam ko bawat 5yards may mabubundol ako at mamatay ang malas na taong iyon. Kakanta na lang ako at mambibingi for now. Anu na namang Kaululan toh?

Speaking of Ulol,I still can’t help myself as I watch people na nakikipag-tinikling sa pagtawid sa kalye (which I am also guilty of- kala niyo kayo lang ha), kaya ayan tuloy na e-exagg ang reactions ko “batang ulul NOooooHHHhh”, “Ulul na Nanay talaga toh” “Asong Ulul, ayaw pa talaga tumabi” “Mamang Ulul” I mean everybody’s Ulol. ;p Inulul ko na silang lahat, in my panic. Im sorry. ;p for the things I say to the world. Concerned citizen lang ako. And they don’t really hear me because I don’t pull the windows down in doing so naman, hindi pa naman ako nau-ulol to do that.

(3) Things could happen to me if I do so however:

a.) Sasamaan ako ng tingin at mumurahin

b.) Sasabunutan, Duduraan at who knows baka mag pabundol pa sila

c.) Uululin din (and I could even get killed, panu kung ulul nga talaga)

(3) Reasons why I cant help but do it:

1.) The hormones did it.

2.) O.A ako

3.) Concern lang I don’t know why it comes out like that though (until it does) ;p

So For your safety:

1.) Never pull the windows down and then say ulol. (make sure they don’t hear you) hahaha =p

2.) Only say ulol when the person is really at a very critical position with the car

3.) Always include their status or role in the society for example: asong kalye = asong kalyeng Ulul, Bus = Ulul na Bus, Vendor = Tinderong Ulul. ( we still have to give acknowledgments) ;p may good manners pa rin ha… if you want pwede mo na rin sabihin Mr Ulul, Ms. Ulul. but dont make the mistake of saying it ala Kanto Girl. But always with a little Cherie Gil to your voice. ( Sorry Cherie Gil. I know you have more class than this... ;) )

But If I were you, I won’t listen to me. Obviously because everything I’ve said was nonsense. I probably don’t know what I’m saying, until late when im offline, and it registers in my mind, word per word and pagsisihan ko why why why.

And patience is a virtue. I am not done with that lesson. =p bear with me. ;p

Hidden Thoughts

The years will only seem like days for familiarities that has never learned to forget but only accustomed themselves to the present. The upcoming seems merely the object of the past. The steps are more cautious, the words carefully spoken. No there is no hole to patch because you were ever so careful this time and yet it is there. A missing piece, only it is not missing. It has no place in the puzzle of today. But it sits there, where you can only know it is there but never see for sure. You have kept it aging but timeless. And timeless will end where destiny steps in. Until then the wheel of fate will always be unknown. In good faith, let warm wishes envelope life wherever it is mailed to.