We'll see

Hithit-Buga Day 1. It didnt take long before I started sneezing. The scent of his cigarette smoke was so strong, you'd think its trying to come alive and be named. It will probably take less than 2 hours for the office to become foggy. Goodbye O2, Hello Carcinogens. (HitHit-Buga,tiny particles of cigarette ash playfully roaming as possible allergen to any of us) Darating din ang Bukas,May Liwananag sa Dilim, Gulong ng Palad, Pangarap na bituin at Isabella. (haaaa? ano raw?). ;P I wish I could cover my nose with a hand and not be deemed rude. But Cherryl be strong. be strong. bear with it. :)

Anyway, I called up the school on my free time earlier today and discussed with Ms. Sol the possible arrangements, and Im still crossing my fingers Sir Denny will be in the mood to allow me to spend a day of the week for school.

"Imagine at my age..." Sharon Cuneta. (on going back to school herself)

Sigh. School. It'll be pretty challenging in the sense that I know people will again have something to say. hay hay hay buhay. And I on the other hand just want to keep focus as much as i can. :)

Dont be brittle peanut brittle, People will always have something to say - ang aking kunsensya. (on going back to school myself)

We'll see. we'll see.

---what to do---

I once said that i always know what i want, well what do you know right?,at the moment, I actually dont. I know i want to do a certain thing but i also know i do not want to compromise anything. It is giving me a really bad headache. I feel like all the fingers of my hands have strings controlling each angle in my life that i am forever trying to balance. It has always been easier to cut one of the strings. or two of the strings. or three. or four and so forth. But I cannot do it and will not do it. These are not just angles , these are angles of my life with direct effect to people i care for. If i sway wrong, If i sway it selfishly, I just might end up tangling up the strings.

what to do. what to do.

The Birthday Week

Thank God for birthdays that come around to tell me how long ive been living under grace. Side comment: I realized that Birthdays are also like countdowns, each year, friends who remember are narrowing down. and friends who do remember, are more special each year. :)
Ryan and I celebrated our birthdays last week.
No partying. Just us. :)

Happy birthday to us!

my cake was the usual chocolate cake, since i prefer no other flavor. :)
and for ryan, i got him sansrival.

***Ryan's Birthday.

Ryan's birthday fell on a monday. After work, I passed by Goldilocks and got him a cake. I bought 2 and 4 for his birthday candles, as a joke to say he's only 24, but not many people know the truth, senior citizen na si ryan hahaha ;p

It was raining that time and I had to protect the box of the cake from big drops of rain so I took a tricycle from the cakeshop to home, only to find out right after the engine motor ran that now i had to protect the cake from touching the insides of the box because the ride was jumpy and the road was bumpy.

I found him in our room and I smiled ' Happy Birthday '. He seemed pleasantly surprised, I think this is the first time I got him a cake. I lit the candles up and took photos of him holding the cake.

He told me " bakit 24 yung candila? nagtitipid ka noh?" and I, thinking he meant i got the candles for free, answered defensively " hoy excuse me 11.50 per number-candle yan noh " but what he was trying to say pala was,that maybe I was going to recycle the candle by using it again on that coming friday, on my cake,since i was turning 24 then. i laughed. I actually forgot i was turning 24. but came Friday and I did. :p Anyway we had dinner at President's Tea House, I forgot what he ordered, ako shempre the usual, sweet n sour pork forever-;p but not all the time, still depends if i feel like ordering sweet n sour. ;p (and for that long-life good luck traditional belief, we ordered an extra dish.., beef hofan. :))

Now My birthday.

Ryan was not around when the clock struck midnight.But He called me on my cel a few minutes before the clock went after cinderella.

I imagined the clock making very loud Ding-Dong sounds.. as the long and short hand of the clock met at the number 12. I took a bath. I felt like it was good omen to take a bath first thing on your birthday. Ryan was still out. He got home around 2am. He was out with the bosses. They are going out of the country again for basketball business, probably Korea. Anyway, We didnt get much sleep the night before because Czesca's flu was bad. Czesca was sick on my birthday and we took her to the clinic that morning. We spent the rest of the day watching over her, and a little of it i spent on cooking spaghetti, after that we took some pictures and had dinner.

Ryan and I also dropped by 168 that afternoon and I bought myself two tops and a pair of shoes.
Then we checked out the new supermarket 'Binondo Supermarket', and passed by King's bakeshop.

Another year older for both of us. Gurang-gutan na me. wAaaAAhh. ;p
We'll always be young at heart.

To complete the day, my birthday wishes are the ff: (just 3, although I think I'm entitled to 24 wishes hahaha :p)
1. good health
2. safety
3. More Blessings. (grace, love, etc)

BaKyA...:P and Local Tv.

Terence (Jericho Rosales): Emerald Kailangan natin mag usap, dahil may nararamdaman tayo para sa isa't isa.

Emerald (Sarah Geronimo): Baket...mahal mo ba ako?

Terence (Jericho Rosales): OO, ako ba mahal mo?

HaHaHa, kinilig naman ako with matching na-excite. ;p Joloogs hahaha, :p ito yung mga konting kabakyaan ko. Hindi naman ako consistent na nakaka-follow sa everyday run, minsan lang pag medyo naabutan ko, but personally i like to watch Filipino soaps rin, but and but- sa Channel 2 lang. Kapamilya kasi ako :P. X sa Tv remote control ang Channel 7, except sa news. Kasi I appreciate yung Imbestigador and Saksi as well. Basta Documentary News reporting - okay.

Balik tayo sa soaps, I remember sobrang tuwang tuwa talaga ako sa Kampanerang Kuba,Buntis pa ako noon, and I usually joked na ako si Kampanerang Bundat. :) Mga around that time I saw Anne Curtis with her then-boyfriend (si Paolo Araneta..Paolo ba first name niya?hmm i forgot) sa Rockwell and im almost too jologs na gusto kong sumigaw ng "Imang" (which was her name in Kampanerang Kuba) and go crazy. Pero hindi ko naman ginawa yun haha, It was bad enough that I was wearing christmas tree-printed PJ's malling and worst,hindi naman Christmas - February yun. Chinese Christmas? (lusot ba? ;p)

Hahaha, anyway, Ang na-appreciate ko at present is yung Pangarap na Bituin and Isabella.

Judy just morphed into hotness early this year tama ba? or late last year?

(hindi naman sa hot as in hot ala Lindsay or Paris or Nicole) ..hot item lang kasi parang naka cross-over siya from being tagged siopao, baduy and 'masa' to sexier and more appealing to other social classes. Fitrum Sales went sky rocketing because of her. Being in love with Ryan Agoncillo actually amplified her career as well, unlike unfortunately Jericho Rosales and Heart who pulled each other down sa kanilang serye before na Panday which was almost a total flop. By the way,Heart just came into the picture last night sa Pangarap na Bituin, She looked radiantly beautiful,I think magiging effective siya sa kanyang supporting role here. The Tv Screen did miss her still.

Nga pala okay for your reference,Here's a short insight on Juday's Market ngayon:

Dati saying that Juday wows you and is very pretty is usually most often than not, social suicide (kahit pa pag uwi mo, nanunuod ka rin naman ng Mara-Clara at naawa kay Mara) pero ngayon hindi na. Your comments are most welcome sa society today. :) Juday is like blooming kasi ngayon. and may fashion sense na :) Plus the given talent na talaga namang she can act. Parang she's reached that star na Philippine TV Legend na, along side Sharon, etc.

******
So yun wala lang, na share ko lang kasi nga nanuod ako kagabi.

In between commercials ng movie ni Kim Tiu and Gerald Anderson with that lame drama punch line:

Kim tiu:
" Bakit ang bike na pre-preno? Bakit ang celfone, na lo-lowbatt? Bakit ang puso......hindi napipigilan ?"

WhaaaaAAAttttt.....nakakagalit. Sana naimprove pa yung script. kasi parang corny and irritating ang dating kesa touching. (I think Kim and Gerald should move on with ibang ka-love team, wala naman na silang sparks eh after PBBTeen1, although sabi nila mabenta pa rin daw outside NCR and sa TFC. hay fine.who cares...)
and isa pang nakaka annoy na commercial is yung sa Max. Yung lalaking may ulo sa tiyan niya na nag iingay...wala na bang ibang ideas jan? hmm and
After ko rin nun manuod nung movie na "Wrong Turn" another morbid thriller film - ala' The Hills Have Eyes, so-so.

Buti pa yung pinanuod namin ni Ryan last Sunday, The Four Feathers. Grabeh tearjerker, Heartcrimping movie. Sobrang bilib me sa story and personality ni Harry (Heath Ledger- cutie pa rin up to now) and Kate Hudson talaga is the beauty na hindi nakakasawa, very cute. The casting was good, the story - lahat. :)

Abangan ang susunod na kabanata...lunch muna ko. :)

JUST THOUGHTS ON SOME CURRENT NEWS

Im not trying to be a news writer here, but its all over the news. ZTE Big issue. Big witness, Secretary Neri is said to be yet another significant key to solving who's the boy crying wolf and who is telling the truth. But what a coincidence, President Gloria Macapagal Arroyo decides to take Sec. Neri along with her on her trip to New York, on the eve of the Senate Hearing when Neri is supposed to take the stand. Coincidence. Coincidence..hmm Why does the President have to drag him along when she knows first hand that Neri's testimonies would be helpful to solving the issue? Is she trying to drag the case, hiding the cards longer, Is she trying to protect her husband? Has she been conspiring with her husband? All haka-hakas. All questionable acts, which even if the Filipino ask, the Government is all deaf ears and rather snickering at such unimportant black propaganda.
???
Also,I think Neri is still undecided as to what to confirm and not confirm, I understand this is a hard decision to make for him and his family. Para silang yung burger patty sa Hamburger. Ipit. But, If he goes on undecided, this means that He is yet to be helpful to solving the case, but rather he is just another floater- as good as the 'no comment' line is. I remember a professor of mine back in UST, he told us that when you are given a choice, you have to choose, you cannot say slightly yes and slightly no. It is either yes or no. Anyone who takes a stand in between go to hell-Politics. No balls-no glory. I dont know if this applies to all aspects of life but for politics, it can. I dont know what it is like to be in Neri's shoes right now.

Anyway,Regardless of what underlying ulterior motive is driving Joey De Venecia III, to carry out such an expose' against FGMA, I believe him to be telling the truth. Whether if its his way of getting back for the contract which could have been his company's or whether he is planning to fragrantly enhanced the family name (which at the same time is irony, especially for his father), I believe him.

FGMA has no whatsoever authority in the government other than being the husband of the President but he seems to be very influential and hard to tackle down ever since, and in spite of.. all the controversy he had been previously linked with. The Arroyo family has struggled succesfully escaping questionable issues after issues. "Tapal Bulka Seal." Everything basta tungkol sa Arroyos', kahit anong kontrobersya, is just plain haka-haka, black propaganda, or ridiculous speculations their camp would always say. I mean Harap Harapan na. I think any Filipino can say "hey huli ka na" and they can still say " Hindi totoo yan" like its nothing. Psychological manipulation, o Mass Helplessness? I mean no further questions, they can turn the fire on you. when its supposed to be burning them already. The Garci incident na lang. Hay...

What does Luli want? (OR is she just another attempt to distract or divert the attention of the people?) anyway Just because she is hurting (which as a daughter, is given and understandable) for her father being the highlight of the katiwalian, and after just a very recent medical operation, she needs the country to sympathize and verdict his father not guilty based on that?
Everybody hurts, Luli. Everybody hurts.

Judging Joey based on his past mistakes in retaliation is very unprofessional and even in a personal circumstance, setting aside all politics involve, is unwise for a woman of her knowledge. Frankly speaking, she was desperate to say something against Joey, and thats all you can find on him? ex- addict ( to what... marijuana?) Im sorry but very Lame. No one is judging you back Luli, as you say you have lives we dont know about other than your politically inclined life, but then again, all that is irrelevant to the issue isnt it? I dont get the point why you brought up your personal issues in the first place. Im a nobody, I dont know you personally, I dont know anybody involve personally , but then i dont have to.

Joey de Venecia III, I am not your fan, but you just do what you need to do.

Speaker Jose De Venecia, close and loyal friend of the President, father of Joey on the other hand only need to remind himself that he is also in this case, the father of Congress.This, i heard sa Radio sa taxi one morning and I agree.

I think I heard him say sa TV news that He already advised GMA to cancel(or whatever terminoloy is more suitable) the ZTE contract and trash it once and for all. And then what? what next...

I dont how this will turn up in the end, or kung interesado pa ba ang tao by then, Ang masasabi ko lang ay ...to Something certainly doubtful, there is obviously something wrong.

Paranaque

birthdays!

Appearance at Paranaque last Saturday. We could have more appearances.. but we lived from point A to Point B, if only we could have a middle point, right? :) I hope they dont get the idea that we dont like dropping by, It is just that the area is too far away and there are also a lot of things to consider since we travel as a family-Czesca being the number one for consideration, if she is feeling well, etc. so yun..Im sorry we couldn't drop by more often ;( but thank you for keeping your doors open. :)

I attended my father's post birthday celebration last Sunday. If I am calculating right, I think he just turned 45 , no joke..bata pa noh? ;). anyway, So we've known each other for 3 years now. The relationship and comfort level is gradually progressing positively. I think we're all doing okay. although my mother is still hung up on the negativity of the past regarding what happened between them.

Anyway....The cheeks, the shape of my nose, the blink of my eyes, heritage.
I am reminded. :) nakakatuwa talaga..nakaka-amuse.

Unfortunately...there were no photos to celebrate on for the after party, aside from cellphone shots because no one had brought their camera. I forgot to charge mine. (Excused :). ) I think Czesca had the most fun. walking and strolling and walking and walking and walking everywhere. ang likot as always :)

It was also the day for my first Rambutan. A reddish Garapata-looking fruit (or so my father described it). It tasted okay, but I can not say I will list it up as one of my favorites. Actually people, the truth is, I think I dont really have a favorite fruit since I eat only a namely few such as Mangoes, Apples, Oranges, Strawberries, Lanzones, Grapes, Santol, Pineapple (juice form) and Laya on occassional terms. O di ba ang dami? i dont like coconuts, melons, watermelons, atis etc...the list of i dont eat fruits goes on. My favorite that time was The Hong-Ba/Hom-Ba... (Or the sweeteened Adobo in my world ) which was delicious. Yummy. My mother was right,Lola Chit's cooking is great! Todo-bola :) pero totoo yan ha :)

My brother though (the eldest) and I are no longer talking as much as we used to do before when we just met each other. Walang Tulugan. ngayon...Walang Pakialamanan. :) joke. But its okay. We are siblings. We are inevitable in each other's world. we'll have lots of chances in the future. :)

What I like about paranaque is that eventhough We have all only known each other for a short time pa lang, they never fail to make us feel welcome and feel 'family'. And everytime, naiiwan sa isip ko yung picture na andun sila lahat sa gate and they are smiling and waving goodbye as they see us off na talagang parang they'll miss us. In conclusion,Its a good feeling to know I also have this family as well as the one I have grown up with. and what i appreciate the most is the sincerity. :) Im very lucky indeed. :)

Thank you very much for your kindness, your warm welcome and for all your love. :)
See you all soon.

Die Another Day

Thank God for my period,period means im a bleeder, which means the dentist can't pluck out my wisdom tooth for the rest of the weekend. Que Horror delayed. phew! :)