The Little Talent Show

cute cute cute. That's our little princess. She was crying so bad inside the ultrasound room that we had to hold her down, and try to calm her . I tried distracting her by telling her we were going home already and all she had to do was say goodbye to the doctors. In the middle of her screams and wails, she let out a cute sob.. "buh-bye". --The 'bye' melts m&m's in their brown and yellow packages.-- That's how cute. For the next few minutes i kept her busy by asking her to do her bibo baby tricks. All in all... I asked her to show the doctors how to do "twinkle-twinkle" "close-open" "i have two hands" and yes i think even "beautiful eyes" pa pala and she did them,........... all while she was still wailing.
As they say, the show must go on. :)

Another fact is , It wasnt easy to hold Czesca down while she was crying her heart out. There was a sting in my heart and shake in my voice. But we needed to go through it. After the procedure, I just had to hug her really tight and say sorry to her (literally), for being scared and held down, for not knowing what is happening and for not being able to make any physical pain (if any) my own. she is our little princess.

A Day without Rain...

August 22. Why do we commemorate someone's death? is it simply beacuse we cannot forget?

Its been 4 years since she died.


All the rivers flow to the Sea
Yet the Sea never become full
But to the place where they Go...
The river keeps on flowing.
-Ecclesiastes 1:7


sometimes when i pray.. i tend to fall asleep half way.
or Sometimes Im just trying to pray. Most times, my prayers are light and other times they are too dark.

But there are prayers we mean, we mean to the heart ...
I remember...
I never begged for a bigger miracle.. than for my sister to live.
Watching her gasping and forcing herself. .

It was moments i would never even in my nightmares dream my sister would have to go through...

Lord I do not know the reasons why ...
but behind my doubts is a trusting heart..
that You are God... A God who is just.
And that You.. have plans for us.
And that everyone has a purpose.
That where.. You have taken my sister is a far better place than here.

--Achie. ( Same prayer for 4 years. same prayer)

We Miss you...