Graduation

College. kelan ba ako gra graduate...finally? - Cherryl

Sabi ni Poli, lipat daw kami. Poli..transferring is not for me anymore. Kukuha ako ng imaginary Epoxy at sasabuyan ko pa ng Mighty Bond at Rugby, im sticking myself, glueing myself para hindi na ako muling lumipat. When I first transferred from Uste to Benilde, sabi nila sa bahay, its not good to transfer kasi if i do, then i'll never stop transferring. I was young. I made harsh decisions too fast. I was aways too quick to jump into an invitation. I also thought being closer to the then-boyfriend was a good idea. People were right. We dont always know for sure even when we already said a million times that we are. I was doing fine in UST, My grades were good and my friends are completely crazy :). I wanted more. And I ended up having none at all. Dont get me wrong, Benilde was fine. The people were fine, the friends were just as crazy too. I just got caught in very bad situations. Things dont always go they way you planned them to. Family problems started to overflow,my dear sister died, the then-boyfriend and I was falling apart and somehow i just felt like the world was closing in on me. I lost control of myself . Before.. I thought.. always being ready to take the plunge and risk the past for something new, or to venture into something new was a brave act in my part. Now i realize it was actually always easy for me. In making my life's decisions, It was easy. It did not matter if it was as small as something like going for a really unusual haircut or moving to a new city and taking on a new job. The hard thing to do was staying put. I look at school as a path to my life's career and everytime an intersection comes along, i tend to say to myself, hey maybe i'll try this way but then half-way i'd say no this is not the way so im going to take another one. Until you realize, you're not going anywhere and time is passing you by.

I am still young now but Im not getting any younger. Im staying put this time. One day at a time. I havent graduated college, but i think i graduated already in making the wrong decisions in college. At least i can start at that.