Fire in the Hole

Crazier by the minute. A loaded tank inside Manila Penn. A failed rebellion. Tear-gas. A forced curfew. An oppressed but seemingly self-motivated senator. A super kapal-muks hobbit sitting above it all. What next. I turned the TV off. I wanted to turn it off just as soon as i realized what was happening but i couldn't. I guess I cant be apathetic. hay..Forgive me if i care for a little politics and i care for this undeserving government more than i do my nails and pedicure. Yes sometimes im also maarte. I want glitters in the right places, colors i can wear and i freak out over a pimple. But I also fret for this country. The dollar rates go down and the peso goes up but for me this is just visual manipulation, they show us the numbers but there is no real change to show in reality. The people are still killing each other for money, the poverty is so bad even a nine year old kid commits suicide. You are forcing us all to be nurses (need i explain?). hahaha dun pala ang bagsak eh noh?

The Way to Keep Me.

dont lose me.
i know you question me.
i question me too.
but you know i tell you everything.
and i thank you for your patience.

i know you said you'd make me stay.
make me stay forever.
but that's not the way i want it now.
dont scare me with foreverrrrrrrrrrrr.

because we only need to make it...
one day at a time.

so when you tell a joke, i'd remember i laughed.
so when we are here we'll know we are
and when you make me happy you'll see me when i smile
let me take the plunge every day.
make me fall in love.

so dont give me forever.
where colors dont change and time just makes you old.

give me one day at a time.
and keep me forever.

;c neyo im so sick.

hay... blog title pa lang corny na.

Im feeling sick. actually kagabi pa ako sick. My head aches and my nose is stuffed. Hirap me makahinga, i feel like para akong hinihingal na aso, since i have to breathe through my mouth. Add pa natin ang sore throat. Kanina pa ako nag wa water-therapy, super dami ko nainom (exagggggg) feeling ko nga pag nilunok ko si nemo hindi siya mamamatay, yung nga lang hindi na siya mahahanap ng daddy niya. (muwahhahaha) hay nako nababaliw na ako. I took one sinutab, one decolgen and one bio flu. And now binigyan pa ako ni Mhaan ng neozep. Hindi ko naman minamadali ang aking pag galing noh? oh well you got me..addict siguro ako sa mga decongestant at paracetamol ;p.

I was supposed to drop by a friend's house last night to give a post birthday gift to my inaanak but i was feeling so bad that i went straight home. After dinner, I went to sleep na kaagad. I only woke up around 10:30 pm to eat grilled chicken which Ryan brought home but then I went back to sleep as in upo-kain-higa. (oink) Sue me I was too sleepy too sick to get up and brush my teeth. *turn-off. ;p* When I woke up, my sore throat got worse, but in fairness naman i brushed my teeth (finally) kaagad and gargled listerine. I deperately need to get well today. or else paano ko haharapin ang bukas? (ok its certified.. im sick and its getting to my head)

On the bus ride to work, nahihilo hilo pa ako. I dont know if it's because i woke up too early...5:30 am or talagang masama pakiramdam ko ( i think both ). So I plugged the earphones to my ears and slept on the way. Wa-poise na kung wa-poise. I need all the rest i can get. Badtrip lang the sun was up too high today and nabubulag talaga ako sa reflection ng window. I closed my eyes pero napapakunot pa rin ako so what i did was sinabog ko yung hair ko sa mukha ko ala' kurtina. Finally some shade.

I need more vitamins. I need more stress tabs. I need some more tender loving care. naks!

Before i went inside the office building, bumili muna ako ng hotdog bun sa mini stop (pepperoni as always).I thought food might help. Ahh.. I dont feel so good. Gusto ko lang mag curl up sa kama and mag mukhang haggard without a care in the world parang ganon. Friday na please.

Lumilindol.

"Lumilindol", thats usually the first thing we tell the person next to us in a sudden occurence like this.We were browsing for online stores when we felt the earthquake. It lasted for a few seconds and I think we (mhaan and I) just stood still until it stopped. -- around 1 pm 11/27/07 Intesity 5.4 (as according to the news)

One of the most unforgettable earthquakes in my life happened some time during high school and we were all already in bed. The cabinet doors started to swing open and close,and when you look out the windows, wires were sparkling lights, glitching. The electricity went out. The whole building was dancing. The old crystal chandelier in the living room was swaying. It was one of the best time the wind chimes can sound the scariest.When it didnt stop after some time, it didnt look safe anymore so we decided it was best to leave. They told me to bring only the most important things. And its funny because looking back now, I remember grabbing only for my rubber shoes, my high school volleyball varsity uniform and my poems. Lumilindol na game pa rin ang iniisip.

Thank God for his grace.

Earthquakes, dont just shake the ground, they shake lives of people and they shake our hearts to remembering those most important to us. (Anep! :p biglang nagka-moral value? ;p haha at least kahit one sentence sa blog na to nag ka sense. ;p)

dont over-play ;p

I have deleted "Best I Ever Had" off the pc, Ive copied it to my ipod. Its a funny song. It reminds me of that time when i use to play it over and over again until someone i used to know finally ejected the cd from the player and scratched it enthusiastically to its destruction (literally) hahaha more like to its pirated death. I really love that song. Sunset at the beach and an ice chilled mango shake on my right hand would best describe it. Rest assured I dont play it on repeat mode anymore (hahaha) Im avoiding violent reactions :p,it's not my most played song either and best yet, no one i know now is out to scratch it/delete it to its destruction anymore. :P

Magandang Umaga Bayan

A lady in glowing hot-pink-spaghetti-strap-top screamed "Pu***** ina mo Pepe! Tang*** mo! Manyakis ka!". A little boy who was bottomless, playing dip-hands in dirty water, ideal for microorganism residency on the sidewalk canal. The homeless, sleeping on the corner. The buzzing Jeepneys and the engine smoke delight. Good morning Pilipinas. We live another day.

The pedicab route passes by a certain wonderland and Alice is not here.

The Little Talent Show

cute cute cute. That's our little princess. She was crying so bad inside the ultrasound room that we had to hold her down, and try to calm her . I tried distracting her by telling her we were going home already and all she had to do was say goodbye to the doctors. In the middle of her screams and wails, she let out a cute sob.. "buh-bye". --The 'bye' melts m&m's in their brown and yellow packages.-- That's how cute. For the next few minutes i kept her busy by asking her to do her bibo baby tricks. All in all... I asked her to show the doctors how to do "twinkle-twinkle" "close-open" "i have two hands" and yes i think even "beautiful eyes" pa pala and she did them,........... all while she was still wailing.
As they say, the show must go on. :)

Another fact is , It wasnt easy to hold Czesca down while she was crying her heart out. There was a sting in my heart and shake in my voice. But we needed to go through it. After the procedure, I just had to hug her really tight and say sorry to her (literally), for being scared and held down, for not knowing what is happening and for not being able to make any physical pain (if any) my own. she is our little princess.