The Perfect Bite

She was cleaning my teeth and I was feeling rather nervous so i bit as hard as I could.
I kept my eyes on the light above me and was just praying na sana hindi ako ma-hook ng doctor by accident.
After a while i dropped my eyes down and noticed i was biting on something i wasn't supposed to bite..
I was biting the dentist's thumb.
The whole time pala, todo ang kinakagat ko ay yung dentist ;p
I looked up at her and smiled.
"Ay doc...kinagat ba kita? ahehehe" awkwardly.
"oo" sabi naman niya.
"ay sorry...sorry talaga... now ko lang na realize kinagat pala kita. sorry hehehe" :)
In fairness, hindi naman siya mukhang galit...
hurt lang.. hurt. ;p

December 29, 2007.

Winner Takes All ;)

Some men say that tayong mga babae hindi tayo nagpapatalo. Ito kaya ay totoo sa akin?


Scenario: May nagbigay sa iyo ng hikaw na 24 Karatssss gold. Nag CR ka at toink! parang nahulog ata. The thing is hindi mo alam kung saan. Paano mo ito sasabihin sa nagbigay sa iyo?

Che: Ry....nahulog
Ry: Ang anu (mega PSP ng PSP)
Che: Yung hikaw (sweetly)
Ry: Saan
Che: Sa CR

Ryan went to the CR and from the outside,I could hear some undefined noises of things being moved. When he came out, he did not look too happy. I was anticipating him and as he said "Ay nako! Panu ka ba kasi maghilamos? (sabay re-enactment kung pano ako maghilamos, in-fairness ha kuhang kuha kung papano), nag flush ka ba ng CR?" note: when i wash my face kasi, todo bigay, pang commercial ng facial wash. splash everywhere. I use both my hands and then may follow through movement pa yan so once i've splashed the water from my hands to my face, yung motion ng hands ko umaabot sa ears. ;p

Che: OO Pagka flush ko, derecho naghilamos ako tapos narinig ko na lang nahulog hikaw ko! (with matching certainty in my eyes)
Ryan: Sus! kasi naman! (medyo inis na ata) sigurado ka ba dito mo nahulog sa CR??
Che: OO OO oo nga jan nga sa CR!

They say that when a person is acting angry, wag ka mag pauna especially if its your boyfriend kasi masasanay raw next time. So what i did was:

Che: Alis ka na jan! ako na ang titingin! (dabog dabog kunyari)
Ryan: (Walking away) Ang swerte mo na lang pag nakita mo yan jan, hinanap ko na mabuti jan.
Che: wag mo ko pakialaman.

I couldnt find it anywhere. Then He called me and said "Eh ano tong andito sa may cabinet sa pinto?!" looking really righteous. (kaasar) note: ang layo ay isang liko at mga around 5 yards.

I thought ' ngek! sa labas pala nahulog' but of course pinanindigan ko ang deadma effect and answered:

"Panu napunta yan jan! akin na nga!! " nakakunot pa face ko jan, sabay suot ng hikaw ko then turn to watch tv.

At ako pa galit eh noh. :)

music pasok: can you handle me the way i are?

Christmas is the Time

Christmas is the time...Christmas is the time...Christmas is the time.. para mandaya sa exchange gift. Madaya ka Macky, 89 pesos lang ang worth ng mugs mong buy 1 take 1. ;p Buti na lang hindi ako ang nakabunot sa yo. :)

Ako at Ang Aking Mga Ipin

Wish granted. Swollen pa rin ang aking gums from the extractions nung Saturday. yes. extractionssss. Kasi pinasabay ko na pabunot yung 2 sa upper molars ko. yehey ang saya. ;p Okay. That was a lousy bluff. I was just trying to comfort myself, kunyari na lang gusto ko talaga ganitong pain ;( Ang totoo,hindi masaya kasi ang sakit ang sakit sakit.) I was fine already nung Monday pero hindi ko natiis ang mag mega kain and then mega mumog with matching mega coke nung Noche Buena. It seems Im now experiencing Dry Socket crisis. :( wuhuhuhu. Dont make me explain hindi ako dentist.

Natatakot na tuloy ako. Next in line na ang aking Impacted left lower wisdom tooth. Where the hell is the tooth fairy? Just imagine hihiwain niya muna yung gums then who knows kung paano niya huhukayin palabas ang aking wisdom tooth. Can i take any more pain? ha? ha? ha? (we cannot escape our destiny, akala ko forever ko ng malulusutan ang pagbunot sa wisdom tooth ko pero hinde hinde hinde)

I was lying there and paulit ulit kong pinakikinggan ang "The Way I Are" on my Ipod while she struggled to pluck my tooth one at a time. At one point I wanted to scream "be over" and at another i wanted to say "gently please...take your time". Mixed Emotions. Feeling ko unti-unting lumuluwag ang tornilyo ng skull ko. I was staring up at her, watching tiny drops of sweat forming on her forehead, thinking "i hope huwag ako mapatakan ng pawis niya di ba?". Thankfully, Natapos rin. She showed me my teeth and I looked at them like it was nothing. Astiiig (artista ka cherryl. artista ka ;p) . She asked me to sit over at the waiting area for a few minutes, then after a while she gave me a box of cassava cake and sent one of her maids to walk me out and get a cab for me.I must admit that all the kindness scared me a little. I have never met such a nice dentist. An idea is, could she have done something wrong?. I am being skeptic for no reason, maybe because the past two dentist who handled me before, yung isa nung bubunutin na niya yung ipin ko and she was about to inject the anesthesia sa akin said "sige! maglikot ka! para mabali tong karayom sa bibig mo" Kahit pa nag iinarte ako, takutin ba ako.. (pero naging effective naman at talagang tanggal ang drama ko that time). Let's just say I haven't been lucky with dentists...until Now. But God deliver me from evil...sana naman maging smooth every visit. As the song tells it "Do it to me gently".

Love Me The Way I Are?

As much as i would like to claim that I am perfect. Im not. :) Im just me. My heart is complicated. I will never know where Ryan gets his patience from. Why everything I do is cute (kahit sa totoo lang, pwede na akong i-silya elektrika sa topak) Life is nuts and so am I. Yes, that was hard to admit hahaha (that im nuts :p), of course i want to be dubbed "the ideal girl of the century" but Im not. All i am is me.

I like to be pampered constantly. I'm spoiled and I can be bitchy. I lose my temper over something as stupid as freakin' nothing. My flaws are all laid out. Im your silly sweet dream girl and then the girlfriend from hell the next minute. Sometimes even I confuse myself. But where people judge me, Ryan understands. I wonder why even when i'm already dead angry/unreasonable and Im being the pain in the ass that i know i am, Ryan just laughs and looks at me like im a little fluffy bunny all cute and cuddly. I hate it. That I cannot see what he sees in me. I love him. because he loves me like i know he does, and im pretty sure no man in this life could probably love me the same way (endure me the same way ;p hahaha). I mean WARNING: OCASSIONALLY POSSESSED BY AN EVIL SPIRIT. who would love someone like that? I wish i could love him the way he loves me (except pagaka seloso). (ang haba ng hairrr :P) But again Im just me, I can only love you the way my heart can. Ill try to do better. In fairness naman,Im not the typical SOCO girlfriend who is always after checking up on his private stuffs. But point me at the right wrong directions and maybe i'll be tempted to peek in every now and then. ;p ahahaha.

The winner sa Dakilang Pag-Ibig of the Century Award ay si Ryan. Thanks. For being consistent despite my inconcistencies. You know ako, I like great love stories. I dream of being in one and hindi ko kaagad na realize that Im already in one.

~~One day at time.

Pasalamat si Santa, Imaginary Siya.

Happy Holidays!

Noong ako ay batang musmos pa at cute na cute. :p
Nagsasabit ako ng school socks ko sa Christmas tree (well bahala na si Santa di ba kung tingin niya luma na yung medyas ko at medyo kupas na) .
Sabi nila darating daw si Santa pag natutulog na kami.
Wala naman kaming chimney or fireplace na pwede niyang maging 'portal of entry' ;p so i imagined siguro si Santa may magic siya, he can appear and disappear as he please.
Come night, Hindi ko sinasara yung pinto ng Kwarto para masilip ko kung dumating siya. I will pretend to close my eyes and sleep so pag nakita niya, he'll appear, yun nga lang I always end up falling asleep for real.
Siguro naka more than one Christmas din yun. I wondered why hindi ko siya maabutan.

Until one morning when i found yung regalo raw ni Santa for me.
wow. Chocolates sa loob ng isang jar na hugis Christmas tree.
Kaso may napansin ako.
Kung bigay ito ni Santa sa akin, at galing ito sa kanyang Toy Factory sa Northpole..
Bakit...Bakit...bakit may tag price sticker ng "Shopper's Mart" at peso price na nakadikit sa ilalim ng jar?
And then everyone laughed guilty.
So dun ko na realize na wala palang Santa Claus.
Syet nauto ako. :) Pakabait bait pa ako. :p

Pero you know what, If Santa was true and talagang pwedeng mag wish ng regalo:
Here's what i want for myself this Christmas:
- A Car. (the works..ipa pimp my ride mo na rin ;p)
- New lenses for my camera (yung mala inter-planetary sa layo.. kaya pa rin i-zoom)
- Tripod (na naglalakad ha para di ko kailangan bitbitin at ilipat lipat, pwede rin yung may kamay para siya magbitbit sa akin)
- A new professional digital camera set in pink na may embossed initials ko in real gold, pwede yung strap studded ( so kailangan customized)
- A star cruise ticket for 4 complete with daily allowance of 500 dollars.
- 100 million dollars ( hahaha at least hindi billions or gazillions, may awa pa ako)


Helllllooooow Si Santa siya so dapat itodo na di ba? Ipagawan niya ng paraan sa kanyang helper elves. Kung pwede pa nga patrabahuhin na rin nya reindeers niya. Actually pigil pa yan ha ;P hekhekhek pagbigyan niyo na ako. Kunyari lang naman noh!;p ( so kunyari rin hindi lang siya sa mga babies and mga bata nag reregalo, pati na rin sa mga baby face at batang isip ganun) Im so mean to Santa, he definitely wont come for me. ;p

dont damn me yet if i sound worldly.
So why not good health and peace and love and all those things money cant buy? eh kasi po even if Santa was true, hindi pa rin siya si GOD. This we pray to God. As for good will and generosity and good hearts, even if siya si Santa and we can pray this to God as well, this can only come from us. Naks!

Old Friends (part I)

"huy may copy ka pa ba nung mga pics natin nung retreat nung high school pa tau?"
"nwla eh"
"nwla?"
"tinapon ni M__. (his wife) hahaha"
"hahaha"

Naka chat ko si E. V. kanina, nakakatawang maisip what memories we choose to remember nung high school pa tayo. haha He's actually one of Czesca's ninongs. Pero as according to him, siya raw ay 'secret ninong' kasi hindi alam sa kanila. I think the wife is a jealous gal, but in fairness she's pretty naman, love lang niya siguro si E to the max.

Earlier naman naka chat ko si Pork ng Pork N Beans. :P di niyo talaga ma ge gets, Because its like an inside joke. :) Mga ka kulitan ko sa class nung 4th year, Im 'N' sa Pork N Beans. Kahapon lang Nakasalubong ko Si Beans sa SM San Lazaro, haha at talaga namang i still call Him "Beans!!".

Noong high school, Im the student na katabi ko lang yung school but im always super late, so i was a regular guest sa guidance office. To help me out, si Pork ginigising niya ako, miss-call forever sa cel hanggang i-reject ko to know na im up already. And if Im still late, tinutulungan nila akong magsulat ng 1000x na "I will never be late again" or kung anu mang bible verse for the day ang iparusa sa akin. :) Si Beans naman sobra bait lang talaga, Inaaway din nila ko minsan pero pag pikon na ako, sinusuhulan nila ako ng mini-keyk bilang peace-offering. Syet...:p mini-keyk...ang babaw ko hahaha, dapat pala nag demand ako ng mas mahal, 20 pesos lang isang pack ng mini-keyk noon. Favorite ko kasi yun dati. haha. Meron pa si Knowledge ( marami siyang knowledge power..;p hahaha example elephant pag tinupi nagiging Et-ts. Sofa pag tinupi nagiging Et-ts. The nick just sort of got stuck hanggang nung 4th year kami.)At first,hindi ko naapreciate maging classmate ko siya, i dread the thought of having him for a classmate. I literally prayed na sana hindi ko siya classmate nung 4th year, but destiny is inevitable, ayun classmates kami. Everyday nag aasaran kami heartlessly, Everyday we made each other laugh, eventually we realized we were very good friends who make each other smile. Na appreciate ko yun. Actually I miss them. The Laughs. The silly jokes. The Pikunan. The Crush ng Bayan Survey. The leakage. The group study kunyari. Without these guys, High school wont be the same and it would have been dull. Sana may Reunion noh.

Si Harvs, musrhoom naman yun eh, bigla biglang sumusulpot. :P Comaniac. :) and we still see each other. He's probably the only guy friend i actually still see a lot. As for the girls, well we have Elouise, the original Validosa or Vanidosa?, who taught me how to dye my hair, do my nails and yes we did use my dentist money to get our hair done. Mary, who when her mother found out na she skipped school she cried she was kidnapped nung nag cut class kami to go to Enchanted ;p. Hazel, who we literally crawled with just to escape from their house at night. Kareen, who is my flip 1. Michelle, my howe howe kuno. The whole Volleyball team. I love love you guys. Everyone else na hindi ko na mention, rest assured you're all in my heart. hellow i demand ba na iblog ko kayo lahat kelan pa ko matatapos. ;p

Hay Nag senti lang ako bigla, si E. kasi ang daming pinaalala kanina.

Beer anung beer?

This morning before i left,
"beer" "beer" sabi ni Czesca.
She handed me her little bear.
"bear! not beer!" I said.
Siguro ganyan talaga pag mas madalas kasama si Yaya kaysa sa amin, namamali na yung mga pronounciation ni Czesca.

In Need of a Good Sleep

Oh..its not such a good day today. Im feeling very sleepy and i still have pictures of Baron pretending to be drunk but actually just being a real asshole in my mind. And I feel bad for being impatient last night when Czesca woke up around 2 am last night and suddenly just started crying and crying. We all want to be good mommies. But we're also just human, we falter every now and then. Easier said than done as they say. Before I left home this morning I gave her three kisses on the side of her lips. Maybe i was hoping she'd wake up and she'd see me. See that Im not angry anymore and that Im sorry.

Graduation

College. kelan ba ako gra graduate...finally? - Cherryl

Sabi ni Poli, lipat daw kami. Poli..transferring is not for me anymore. Kukuha ako ng imaginary Epoxy at sasabuyan ko pa ng Mighty Bond at Rugby, im sticking myself, glueing myself para hindi na ako muling lumipat. When I first transferred from Uste to Benilde, sabi nila sa bahay, its not good to transfer kasi if i do, then i'll never stop transferring. I was young. I made harsh decisions too fast. I was aways too quick to jump into an invitation. I also thought being closer to the then-boyfriend was a good idea. People were right. We dont always know for sure even when we already said a million times that we are. I was doing fine in UST, My grades were good and my friends are completely crazy :). I wanted more. And I ended up having none at all. Dont get me wrong, Benilde was fine. The people were fine, the friends were just as crazy too. I just got caught in very bad situations. Things dont always go they way you planned them to. Family problems started to overflow,my dear sister died, the then-boyfriend and I was falling apart and somehow i just felt like the world was closing in on me. I lost control of myself . Before.. I thought.. always being ready to take the plunge and risk the past for something new, or to venture into something new was a brave act in my part. Now i realize it was actually always easy for me. In making my life's decisions, It was easy. It did not matter if it was as small as something like going for a really unusual haircut or moving to a new city and taking on a new job. The hard thing to do was staying put. I look at school as a path to my life's career and everytime an intersection comes along, i tend to say to myself, hey maybe i'll try this way but then half-way i'd say no this is not the way so im going to take another one. Until you realize, you're not going anywhere and time is passing you by.

I am still young now but Im not getting any younger. Im staying put this time. One day at a time. I havent graduated college, but i think i graduated already in making the wrong decisions in college. At least i can start at that.

HCHS Volleyball- ang muling pagkukulitan

Pag ako nagka kotse. (if and if)...shit ang una kong pupuntahan Antipolo, not Tagaytay, not bagiou, etc etc. Antipolo. Hindi naman sa yun ang favorite place ko, im just laging nabibitin pag papuntang Antipolo. Laging di natutuloy. Yan tuloy sounds like my favorite place na tuloy. I would really really love to just sit back and enjoy the view from the top. Pag dating ko dun, oorder ako ng sisig, at kakain ako ng crunch bite size and magpapaka senti ako. Ma tao kasi sa Tagaytay, tendency to see someone you know (not that im up to doing something bad, siguro minsan a pseudo escape from everyday stress is simply needed. Antipolo's a good second option noh?. (now turned first). I just remembered kasi hindi nanaman natuloy nung Saturday. Sila Michelle kasi decided we should just go to Eastwood. Maybe Im supposed to go there someday at the right time and for a very special reason. Hahaha kinilig kilig naman ako. wehehehe. Gabi na, The wind is chilling ,the stars are all lit up, my hair is sobrang soft (sinama ko pa talaga ang hair ko ;p) Everything is perfect, except i bet malamok di ba? and ma-insect.

Beer. I dont think I can drink. At least not anymore and not at some place public. Im a real tomato. Kalahati pa lang, sobrang red na. Kareen on the other hand is our toma queen. Binigay ko na lang sa kanya yung kalahati, helloow ang pangit ko na. I can bear 'drunk', but i cant bear looking like a drunkard wearing a tomato head and knowing im not even drunk. And personally, drinking doesnt do me much good. I have my friends to thank for watching over me, during those yester-times when we would spend the night away gathering and drinking whatever. Kareen- the toma queen is also former Inuman-dean, siya nagbabantay sa akin (or so she confirmed) Elouise I swear to God i remember falling everywhere,etc etc, but i swear i do not remember taking a shower with all my clothes on, ano ko nang aakit? but i did notice wearing a different shirt the next day when i woke up (courtesy of my wardrobe changers Elouise and Jocelyn).. as for what happened to my shirt. Yung classic white Benetton Tee ko ay ginamit at inangkin na ni C. Quieng (he's a good guy so i think ok lang sayong sayo na yan! :) ) Pero sabi nga nila, pag may good mayroon ding bad. Who do bad things. Im not going to elaborate. (but please dont run your imaginations) Young people should just be really sure they know everyone well enough to trust them and girls always looking out for each other is very very very important. After that inuman session, I did not allow myself to go anywhere near that kind of situation again.,especially when there are uninvited vultures around.

HCHS earlier:
The picture taking was brief. It didnt take long. I looked cheeky in all of it. (what's new?) Its been so long since i stepped inside the gym. A lot has changed, but the feeling is still the same, somewhere inside you, you want to run, you want to jump, you want to play, but then you realize it's really not the same so why not just take a seat and chat. :) My former-love of 4 years was there.He smiled, and waved hi. His current girlfriend was also there, who organized this little reunion. His First-ex was also there, now turned Czesca's ninang. Oh my. Para pala kaming One Tree Hill. To think sumasakit ang ulo ko sa One Tree Hill and i said i'd never fall for Lucas. Only this guy is Lucos. Luco-lucos. ;p hehe joke lang po. Seriously joke joke joke lang. It feels good to know na we can now be at one same place comfortably na wala ng tension. Natuwa din ako makita sila, above it all, nagingibabaw ang pinagsamahan. For those idiots who dont know. I used to share the same court with these people, we used to be friends... good friends and we'll always be friends.

Joanna, a.k.a Dots. was there, Ha. Parang kelan lang, kaming tatlo ni Gelynne, we sang and danced to the tune of 'She bangs, She bangs' during one alumni christmas party dati. Nauna kami kay William Hung ha. hehehe. Nag overnight pa kami sa bahay to rehearse and memorize the lyrics and the dance, then the following day rehearse uli, we even bought our minus one tape. Todo effort talaga. Joanna's around 5'8 and Gelynne is around 5'10 , ako lang ang maliit. :P All to win 500 pesoses hahaha na pinaghatian pa namin hahaha. LUGEEEE! ;p and lastly, guess who's the choreographer?...............Meeee. And i cant even touch my toes without bending my knees. It was hilarious.

And now we're back.

Where am I?

"Columbia!!!!!!!!" The voice woke me up. Oh my gulay nasa La Salle Greenhills na ako banda. I unplugged the earphones and walked like a lost confused zombie towards the door. I pulled my cel out and called the office. Im late. again. I just felt so tired I completely dozed off. I took a fast jeepney ride back to Caltex. Ah Interesting morning. Pero look at the bright side at least hindi ako umabot sa Taytay, Rizal right? ;p

Abscence makes the heart grow fonder.

So True.

From Blues to Burps

Late late dinner at Mc Gerry's last night. The food was great. The ambiance,'is' very chinatown so warning lang... if you are not used to people seemingly screaming all at the same time as if ready to kill each other but really just talking and you're strictly pang fine-dining,then you should just eat your dinner at home. :) But if it doesnt bother you,go because the food is great. (I said it twice to put emphasis ;p) I missed Sibut. It reminds me of Amah. She cooks mean sibut. :). And as usual hindi mawawala ang sweet n sour pork. love love love it. :P

Anyway while there, I talked to Ryan about what was bothering me about our situation right now and we have agreed that hindi na siya mag 'bibiro' ng mga ganun (example : may lalaki ka noh?) Sabi niya joking joking lang daw lahat yun eh. whooooohhhhhhh! Men.., Lulusot hangga't may lusot :) but its okay as long as he'll do as he said di ba? Thank you labylab (now that the collar's loosened up, magwawala na ako :p muwahahaa...deh joke ;) hehe ). See how fast my mood changes, cheery cherry na naman ako, hmm...must be the food.. We know there's a saying that "the way to a man's heart is through his stomach" ako ganun din siguro hahaha "the way to my heart is through my stomach" but if im not a man and this doesnt apply to women...im a..bulate? ;p. Hay...so i have 'the way to get to my heart' 'the way to keep me' etc etc, Cherryl either ang demanding mo or i just really like to use the starting phrase "the way to....." ;p whatchathink? ;phehe, Sabi nga ni King Leonidas sa movie 300 "immortals..we'll put them to the test" ( wala.. malayo ba? walang koneksyon? hehe sorry pampagulo lang ;p). Sometimes i wonder if i have gained myself my very own psycho killer, tipong gusto na akong abangan and then kill me para hindi na ako makapag blog ng mga ikakasira ng inyong sanity. Ovvverrrrr. :p

Also i think i bumped into an old friend while we were there. Okay not 'i think' because actually i did. :) Although I dont think we were friends.. 'friends', we were more like a little of the opposite nung high school,pero siguro counted na rin as friends ;p ka-friendster eh. We really didnt say much to each other, other than hi hello how are you. Im not even sure if we meant it or if we really cared. Its not being plastic,It was just a good spur of the moment friendliness. :) buuuurrrrrp.

From Blah to Blues.

why do i subject myself to known and unknown judgements?
I dont always know the right words to use, when people ask me questions that are supposed to define who i am and how i am. I wish i could be more careful in choosing the words but like i said earlier i dont always have the right words. And it is so me. Im inevitably a jinx to myself sometimes. Story of my life. And i wish people could just simply not ask questions. Story of their life.

Enough. I've wasted too much blog space for that unidentifiable emotion above.
Change topic. I hate it that im sick. My voice is coarse, I sound like a guy and my back is aching so bad i could almost pin where my lungs are. *I could imagine them maroon red and swelling. *

Ryan is out to play basketball and he wont be back till 9. I wish I could play basketball. I missed shooting free throws. In fact I miss it to the extent, im willing to settle for Timezone. heyheyhey. Dont under estimate arcade basketball. ;p nakakapawis din yun ha. Buti pa ang mga guys. They can just find a court,gather a few friends or even strangers, chipped in and voila, basketball. Me I cant even think of 3 girls who likes to play basketball. Sabi ni Ryan "sama ka tapos shooting shooting ka lang dun" kaso naman if i do, mukha lang akong pa cutie pie. so never mind na lang.

Volleyball. Its not like i can go wear my rubber shoes, pack my bag and re-appear as an alumni and say hi can i join? I've taken the exit. Somewhere along there, I must have made it impossible for me to go back even if just for fun.
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What i need now that i wish i can have:
I need my magic carpet. I know i dont even have one. Id like to be at the beach now please. Id really like that. Id really like not to have Ryan accuse me of checking out guys. stop. stop. stop.Im not. if...and if i am, i'll tell him naman so there is no need to accuse. Id like to be allowed to relax and not be accused of crushing on other guys. Id like to loosen the collar a little bit please. I dont even party and i usually dont go anywhere without you except for work and school.

Im not looking forward to partying like an animal, Ive never even smoked anythng other than pollution and I already learned my lesson a long long time ago that too much drinking can make you stupid. I just want to laugh a little without having to worry if its okay. I would like not to have my daily celphone check-up. No one in this entire universe texts me except my old friends / relatives and they're usually just quotes for the day, there is nothing to check. Im 24. Im not asking to be single. Im not asking for freedom. I just want to breathe a little. If im staying forever..at least let me breathe. That's why forever scares me, now i said it right. And one last thing, if you get to read this, I'd like you to take this very seriously. Ive been as good as i can get, honest as i can get,ive stuck through worst times and good times, give me what i earned. a little room for air. you know i love you. im crazy in a lot of ways but we both know that's crazy you can love. so dont go crazy on me anymore.

Dont scare me.

Fire in the Hole

Crazier by the minute. A loaded tank inside Manila Penn. A failed rebellion. Tear-gas. A forced curfew. An oppressed but seemingly self-motivated senator. A super kapal-muks hobbit sitting above it all. What next. I turned the TV off. I wanted to turn it off just as soon as i realized what was happening but i couldn't. I guess I cant be apathetic. hay..Forgive me if i care for a little politics and i care for this undeserving government more than i do my nails and pedicure. Yes sometimes im also maarte. I want glitters in the right places, colors i can wear and i freak out over a pimple. But I also fret for this country. The dollar rates go down and the peso goes up but for me this is just visual manipulation, they show us the numbers but there is no real change to show in reality. The people are still killing each other for money, the poverty is so bad even a nine year old kid commits suicide. You are forcing us all to be nurses (need i explain?). hahaha dun pala ang bagsak eh noh?

The Way to Keep Me.

dont lose me.
i know you question me.
i question me too.
but you know i tell you everything.
and i thank you for your patience.

i know you said you'd make me stay.
make me stay forever.
but that's not the way i want it now.
dont scare me with foreverrrrrrrrrrrr.

because we only need to make it...
one day at a time.

so when you tell a joke, i'd remember i laughed.
so when we are here we'll know we are
and when you make me happy you'll see me when i smile
let me take the plunge every day.
make me fall in love.

so dont give me forever.
where colors dont change and time just makes you old.

give me one day at a time.
and keep me forever.

;c neyo im so sick.

hay... blog title pa lang corny na.

Im feeling sick. actually kagabi pa ako sick. My head aches and my nose is stuffed. Hirap me makahinga, i feel like para akong hinihingal na aso, since i have to breathe through my mouth. Add pa natin ang sore throat. Kanina pa ako nag wa water-therapy, super dami ko nainom (exagggggg) feeling ko nga pag nilunok ko si nemo hindi siya mamamatay, yung nga lang hindi na siya mahahanap ng daddy niya. (muwahhahaha) hay nako nababaliw na ako. I took one sinutab, one decolgen and one bio flu. And now binigyan pa ako ni Mhaan ng neozep. Hindi ko naman minamadali ang aking pag galing noh? oh well you got me..addict siguro ako sa mga decongestant at paracetamol ;p.

I was supposed to drop by a friend's house last night to give a post birthday gift to my inaanak but i was feeling so bad that i went straight home. After dinner, I went to sleep na kaagad. I only woke up around 10:30 pm to eat grilled chicken which Ryan brought home but then I went back to sleep as in upo-kain-higa. (oink) Sue me I was too sleepy too sick to get up and brush my teeth. *turn-off. ;p* When I woke up, my sore throat got worse, but in fairness naman i brushed my teeth (finally) kaagad and gargled listerine. I deperately need to get well today. or else paano ko haharapin ang bukas? (ok its certified.. im sick and its getting to my head)

On the bus ride to work, nahihilo hilo pa ako. I dont know if it's because i woke up too early...5:30 am or talagang masama pakiramdam ko ( i think both ). So I plugged the earphones to my ears and slept on the way. Wa-poise na kung wa-poise. I need all the rest i can get. Badtrip lang the sun was up too high today and nabubulag talaga ako sa reflection ng window. I closed my eyes pero napapakunot pa rin ako so what i did was sinabog ko yung hair ko sa mukha ko ala' kurtina. Finally some shade.

I need more vitamins. I need more stress tabs. I need some more tender loving care. naks!

Before i went inside the office building, bumili muna ako ng hotdog bun sa mini stop (pepperoni as always).I thought food might help. Ahh.. I dont feel so good. Gusto ko lang mag curl up sa kama and mag mukhang haggard without a care in the world parang ganon. Friday na please.

Lumilindol.

"Lumilindol", thats usually the first thing we tell the person next to us in a sudden occurence like this.We were browsing for online stores when we felt the earthquake. It lasted for a few seconds and I think we (mhaan and I) just stood still until it stopped. -- around 1 pm 11/27/07 Intesity 5.4 (as according to the news)

One of the most unforgettable earthquakes in my life happened some time during high school and we were all already in bed. The cabinet doors started to swing open and close,and when you look out the windows, wires were sparkling lights, glitching. The electricity went out. The whole building was dancing. The old crystal chandelier in the living room was swaying. It was one of the best time the wind chimes can sound the scariest.When it didnt stop after some time, it didnt look safe anymore so we decided it was best to leave. They told me to bring only the most important things. And its funny because looking back now, I remember grabbing only for my rubber shoes, my high school volleyball varsity uniform and my poems. Lumilindol na game pa rin ang iniisip.

Thank God for his grace.

Earthquakes, dont just shake the ground, they shake lives of people and they shake our hearts to remembering those most important to us. (Anep! :p biglang nagka-moral value? ;p haha at least kahit one sentence sa blog na to nag ka sense. ;p)

dont over-play ;p

I have deleted "Best I Ever Had" off the pc, Ive copied it to my ipod. Its a funny song. It reminds me of that time when i use to play it over and over again until someone i used to know finally ejected the cd from the player and scratched it enthusiastically to its destruction (literally) hahaha more like to its pirated death. I really love that song. Sunset at the beach and an ice chilled mango shake on my right hand would best describe it. Rest assured I dont play it on repeat mode anymore (hahaha) Im avoiding violent reactions :p,it's not my most played song either and best yet, no one i know now is out to scratch it/delete it to its destruction anymore. :P

Magandang Umaga Bayan

A lady in glowing hot-pink-spaghetti-strap-top screamed "Pu***** ina mo Pepe! Tang*** mo! Manyakis ka!". A little boy who was bottomless, playing dip-hands in dirty water, ideal for microorganism residency on the sidewalk canal. The homeless, sleeping on the corner. The buzzing Jeepneys and the engine smoke delight. Good morning Pilipinas. We live another day.

The pedicab route passes by a certain wonderland and Alice is not here.

The Little Talent Show

cute cute cute. That's our little princess. She was crying so bad inside the ultrasound room that we had to hold her down, and try to calm her . I tried distracting her by telling her we were going home already and all she had to do was say goodbye to the doctors. In the middle of her screams and wails, she let out a cute sob.. "buh-bye". --The 'bye' melts m&m's in their brown and yellow packages.-- That's how cute. For the next few minutes i kept her busy by asking her to do her bibo baby tricks. All in all... I asked her to show the doctors how to do "twinkle-twinkle" "close-open" "i have two hands" and yes i think even "beautiful eyes" pa pala and she did them,........... all while she was still wailing.
As they say, the show must go on. :)

Another fact is , It wasnt easy to hold Czesca down while she was crying her heart out. There was a sting in my heart and shake in my voice. But we needed to go through it. After the procedure, I just had to hug her really tight and say sorry to her (literally), for being scared and held down, for not knowing what is happening and for not being able to make any physical pain (if any) my own. she is our little princess.

LBM

TAKLESA. Thats what ive been yesterday to my mom.
I was just already so worried with Czesca, I didnt want to hear her comparing Czesca's situation to Rain's anymore. It was already so vivid in my mind - the unwanted flashbacks. I hated it.

She kept saying "Oo ganyan rin sinabi nila sa akin dati eh..." "oo kainis nga pag sinabi sa yo na walang gamot" "kawawa naman si czesca parehong pareho noon kay Rain" The test result weren't out yet and I was really anxious and It was not helping to hear her compare Czesca to my sister who is dead already. In my mind it was like i was whispering back that its not the same and It cant be. and I just lost it. I screamed "PATAY NA SI RAIN! PATAY NA SI RAIN! PATAY! PATAY! HUWAG MO SIYA IKUMPARA KAY RAIN! NAKALIBING NA SIYA SA LUPA!" i freaked out, it was like all the hidden tension that i didnt want to disclose just escaped me like loose bowel.

It was after I got the results 'prominent lump but no cystic masses found' that I was a little bit relieved and realized what i probably did to my mom. It was definitely wrong and certainly hurtful to scream to her that my sister is already nasa lupa and dead like she was just some random deceased. I was cruel and selfish (and was very offensive). I called my mom when i got back, blowed balloons out of surgical gloves for my youngest brother and eased the tension silently. I certainly did not want to watch my sister die,or lose her, I wanted her to live. I also knew how much hurt it brought us and my mom. Im sorry rain, Achie didnt mean it.

My Happiness

One minute life was savvy and then the next minute its adversity.

We can never really predict where the wind blows next. Saturday was the day. It was also the day for my turn on sore eyes. Please see below photo of my swelling peepers:

No - I was not in Pinoy Mano Mano. These are compliments of my mom. virus ka...;p

I hid them in disguise via my 50php tiangge-bought old red shades, which i had to fish out with an umbrella from the back of the shoe cabinet amongst the dust and spider cobwebs. I used it for the first time ever. My eyes were practically morning glory factory and very much swelling. If it looked good on me (the shades), it was the least of my priorities, but i must admit, I thought of it.

Life has an odd way of piling up misfortune on your head sometimes. And my state of conjunctivitis was just a small dot to what we were given next:

"My Happiness is when I know they are safe" Does anybody ever take my friendster profile seriously, or is it just another poetic introduction?. Im serious. Saturday night- I was reminded, that my happiness is when i know they are safe. There is a lump on Czesca's left breast. This life is twisted. Oh my goodness. I was just praying to God, to let the results be okay, atleast give us hope or give us something to look forward to. She is God's grace and I refuse to believe she is anything other than that. I remembered myself when my sister got sick and I put my hand on rain's head, out of desperation, i just prayed for her to be healed ( ala' faith-healer stance.yes). I sort of just said then"Lord I know im not the right person to do this, im not even worthy, Im not a prophet and Im not even a good christian but give us a miracle, heal her. dont take her away". Lets have a recap. A few days after, my sister was dead. God doesnt always answer our prayers they way we want Him to. It was traumatic. After a situation like that, it tend to make you paranoid. So involuntarily, memories of my sister flashed back in my mind and I really dont want history to repeat itself, especially on Czesca. I was just praying so hard, I said It didnt work before,but it has to now. Im not asking for a miracle now. Im asking for mercy. (we were really scared. ) Im not asking for strength. Im asking for faith.

Monday came and the results were out: There is nothing we can do about the lump at the moment. There is no medicine, we just have to monitor closely every month and do a sonomammogram test (if i said that right). In every result, hope to find consistently no cyst or any sort of transformation of the lump. Im feeling better, there is no way that i will look at this again with pessimism in my heart, I did my prayer and nowI'll do my faith. Czesca is okay, she is still her playful beautiful self. The doctor said the good news is there is chance that it could go away by itself. We are willing to wait. And I am really looking forward to that day.. I know God has given us hope and its a good sign. (and I will keep my promise and I know She is still God's grace.) Thank you Lord for the good times and the adversities. May you always find your way in us when we tend to fall short most of the time. Keep them safe Lord. Keep them safe.

Office calls

Phone Rings (line 3):

Che: Hellowwww, good afternooon (in my sweetest voice)

Girl on the other line: Im Looking for Ms. Marcel...

Che: Sorry wrong number

Girl on the other line: Marcela Ngo?

Che: Wrong number..

Girl on the other line: 722..15..62?

Che: sorry ..65 kami. wrong number. (snob voice)

BLAG! ( I didnt have time for lost callers who wants to waste time asking me why she got the wrong number. wala ako sa mood nun eh.)

Phone Rings (line 3 again):

Che: Hellooww, good afternoon (sweetly)

Girl on the other line: Ms. Marcela..

Che: Wrong NUmber!!!

Girl on the other line: well Miss hindi kayo 65! 62 kayo!

Che: (BLAG, ;p I slammed the phone receiver!)

..and yes i learned by confirmation that we were '62'. In basketball terms "BUTATA". :P

Note: of course I did not use the actual Phone Number in this blog. die prank callers die :)

Lunch Breaks

If lunch breaks continue to be this long..I'll have to say....ZzzZZzzzzzzz.

First DAy

So I tried to make friends today, i made small talk of what little common ground we had (that i know). And unfortunately, the conversation just wont bounce (boing!!)back right. So after a few minutes of trying, I decided to move on and make friends with Ronald Mc Donald - he always seemed to be a happy fellow of yellow and red-orange. It was a few blocks away and I thought,a little exercise won't hurt. I ordered Nuggets with Fries. I tried my best to chew slowly, but what can you expect...how long will 5 pcs of nuggets last and we all know that eating fries alone is not fun at all. I picked on my fries as slowly as i can but i didnt even manage to eat more than 10 sticks. 5 Girls busy powdering themselves in the Restroom contributed a little more for the delay I needed -thanks..but then again I still have an hour and a half of break.Thankfully the Library gave me refuge. Internet. I think If i can find more nonsense to blog, I'll be able to ignore the time passing. So what else? lets see. Im guessing most of them are residing somewhere near here or within the proximity. They are probably at home watching TV. Anyway I can go home too, if i like and then just go back later, but i know myself...I probably wont be back if I do that. I wonder what they are doing at the office. Did we have air shipment for 6043 today? Did James already send the CAR and CAC report. My mind is somewhere else alright.

Ah I remember, I brought with me samples of the photos I've taken but to my dismay, Ms. Rima already resigned and the project for the newspaper thingy has been temporarily cancelled. Then all my excitement for today just went poof!. Is the clock not tick tocking at all? This is probably going to be one of the longest lunch breaks I had to endure awkwardly. And this morning during the introduction, I dont know why i was so shaky. I guess Im not so used to speaking in public as i thought i was since I've had the experience of talking to different people in my line of work,or I just maybe cant escape first day jitters.

SORE EYES

aaaAAAHHHHH!!! Sore eyes. According to Ryan it hasnt spread out yet to infect the other eye, so its still contained in one eye. I dont know how Czesca is feeling. Ryan just called me on my cel, he's waiting for me at home. Im going to have to rush home, take the bus to V. Mapa then from V. Mapa, take the LRT to Recto then get a pedicab ride home.

It was acquired virally, that im very certain. Just a week and a half ago, my 2 brothers, their dad, and my mother (being the last one to get infected) had red sore eyes and i strictly kept them off our room and in contact with Czesca. My mom is nakakainis sometimes, by the time the redness of her eyes was gradually fading she kept on insisting she was fine already and was always up to touching Czesca and going into our room. Last week i was able to guard her off, but this week, because I have to be at the office, Im guessing she had her time to playing Czesca til she finally passed on the virus. AaaaHhhhh.. She knows this first hand that when sore eyes are in the stage of healing, the virus is more likely at its most contagious stage and its not like i can stop and 100% guard Czesca from touching her face and eyes which likely increase the chances of infection. I hope its not much painful for Czesca to open her eyes and blink. Yaya, Ryan and Me will be on the red alert. I cant afford to get infected as well. Not now, my schedule is fully booked. Neither can Ryan, He has a flight to catch on Saturday. If he gets sore eyes, they might not allow him to proceed with joining the team for the trip to Singapore. The timing is so uncalled for. Im definitely not happy about it and definitely sad for Czesca. Our Little Princess...may sore eyes? kawawa naman.

Note: Its the rainy season, and its a cold season virus and this... just officially amplified our chances to get infected. I cant remember the last time i had sore eyes. Bata pa ata ako nun. However,Im not excited to rekindle the experience again. I saw my brother last weekend and their sore eyes made them look like Tiyanaks. The cheeks i can bear, puffy painful red eyes-no way.

PMS thoughts

Its a few more days and a different chapter of my life is going to collide with this current chapter and will go on as one. I dont know if I'm having migraines thinking about it or its just PMS. what am i thinking? No really.. what Am I thinking? ah yes the new chapter...Im looking forward to it. Im not looking forward to it.uh-huh Yep. Its PMS alright.

Pighati ng Bubwit

Paano magdalamhati ang batang si Czesca?
Note: No babies were bullied, pinched,bit and harmed in anyway during the shoot of these pictures. No baby trick was attempted to make any baby sad. No tears were expensed in spite of the struggle of this baby to do so. This baby had just had her nap and wanted mommy to pick her up. :)

(",)

We spent November 1st at Robinson's place to watch '30 days of night'. I cant really tell anymore how long its been since we last went there. I didnt know they had added a new wing to the mall. And I didnt know Taters moved. (see? thats how long..)Anyway so we pushed Czesca in her stroller until she fell asleep , to make sure she wont be causing any distraction during the movie, and then we went to the ticket booth. The lady said Czesca wasnt allowed to go in"R-13 po sir..ma'am" Actually, we already know they dont let babies in, we were just looking forward they wont be so strict when they see her asleep. *stupid. Disappointed,we ended up riding our way back home and settling for 8 episodes of 'Heroes' (Season 2). Bitin. It was 10 pm already when i pulled myself from watching TV.


SM - the next day to watch '30 days of night' (finally.) Both of us,with a fruitshake on one hand and a cup of corn on the other, except i was also hugging a big bag of popcorn. (oink-oink). AND considering we just had our lunch. SISIG And Chicken Barbecue served with garlic rice ( the devil-oink.) Anyway, the movie was great. .Ahh naiyak pa nga ako. kasi naman kasi naman. kawawa naman si Josh ;p (but not to be mistaken, hindi po ito drama. Horror.). 30 days of night. well-recommended.

And then there's Kenny (mekeni :P)- we saw her coming from the ticket line. We exchanged good smiles. And although i wasnt sure because i didnt see, i was thinking she's there with the new boyfriend. Then i remembered my brother, she really broke his heart. But i am not blaming her, there is no such thing as an easy goodbye. I should know. Actually I do. hm. :)

Then the next thing i remember is me falling asleep from imagining what if i was in a '30 days of night situation?'? :)

Note: I noticed that malls dont really spend much on decorations anymore the way they used to. Dati pag Halloween talagang halloween. Ngayon just spread out fibers of cotton , hang them somewhere...halloween na. orange and black.

Recap

Deal or no deal na index finger ang proxy as thumb.'jump' na hindi naman tumatalon. Big girl na si Czesca. hay... Raise the volume of your voice a little and she'll plant her face on your lap or cover her face with her hands and sob. The baby griefs are really cute. Pag may kanta sa TV, especially commercials "Kering-keri " by Kim Tiu ( <--ang dalagang boses binata), she'll sing along, and though we dont really understand a word of what she's singing, palakpakan naman kami ng daddy niya "wow, very very good, super galing!". sigh.. it seemed not so long ago (but thank God its over...;p) when I was still in my last trimester of pregnancy, oggling with myself in the mirror , "ampangit pangit ko na huhuhu...ang taba taba ko na...huhuhu...ang laki laki ng ilong ko huhuhu." *( visually traumatic and physically tormenting in my case)*

anyway...next scene nasa delivery room na ako:

che (after hours of non stop complaining and whining and crying): "please doctor cesarian na lang huhuhuhu.. di ko kaya umire..ayoko na umire..huhuhu.. di ko kaya..ayoko na..huhuhu cesarian na lang kasi please"

Drs (naiinis but encouraging voice): "hindi pwede.. ayan na o. 10 cm ka na. konti na lang... nakikita ko na yung ulo"

che (hagulgol): "SINUNGALING! anung ulo? di mo kaya makikita yun eh...huhuhu di ba maliit lang yun parang dadaanan huhuhu (with matching demonstration using my hands kung gaano kaliit sa tingin ko ang passage way)

or the painful painless:

Che (numb butpsychologically hurting) :aray ko ang sakit...ang sakit..aray aray...ouchie aray.
Drs: ay nako...ikaw lang ang naka painless na umaaray. dagdagan nga ng anesthesia to.

Yes. oo maarte akong patient. oo marami akong complain. oo pinagod ko ang mga doctor. oo, shit lang naiire ko mag isa.
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And just a day after giving birth, I was walking on the hallway dun sa building namin,nakasalubong ko yung maid ng kapitbahay:

Neighbor's maid (smiling): ate naku malapit na yan,ilang araw na lang manganganak ka na.

Che (awkward smile back): eh nanganak na nga ako eh. tapos na ko manganak.
(deep inside- huhuhu...nanganak na nga ako eh anu ba kayo.. nanganak na ko)

Naiisip ko nga pwede na ako kumuha ng visa sa australia, bilang kangaroo.

And then there was a time, puro si Ryan lang ang gusto niya, ang kalaro niya, ang katabi niya...hay nako...happy man ako, kakainggit din. para akong left-out. ( "ah O.p! O.p!)

One time nga sinumpong ako and nagkainisan kami ni ryan: (",)

Che (seryosong slightly volume up ang boses ko dito): OO na oo na, ikaw na ang daddy, ikaw na ang mommy, happy mother's day! happy father's day!!!!

Dumaan ang mga anghel. moment of silence.
Sabay tawanan. We just laughed. :p

Hay and now she's maka-mommy naman ngayon. It's payback time. hehehe(corrrrnny mo zuno) She is our everyday wonder and she makes all my ugly duckling tormenting days during pregnancy worth it. :) I know ive probably reminisced the whole transition to motherhood many times already, but its just not possible to get over it. :) She is truly God's grace.

unwanted waves

You'd think sa ikli ng hair ko with the wash and wear effect, i will never have bad hair days again...*buzzzerrr* wrong. I pulled it back with a headband and now its wavy the wrong way. But thanks to Halloween, i can now say i did it on purpose (hmm. ok actually maybe i did, but hey i didnt purposedly wanted to end up with the bad waves) Happy Halloween.

ps: hindi siya 'fly-away'. waves. waves. waves.

Pinocchio Stars*

Gracefully your sparks disperse like colorful water in the night sky,
you showcased your synchronized dance and your moment to fly,
the life of the night...the sky's delight,
take your flight.
bec. tonight.. you become a star.
with a light to boast, one moment to own,
a chance to shine, and only one night to take it.
Little pinocchio stars.
Live for the moment.

~~I wished i could watch the fireworks from the eyes of someone who has never seen one.~~
**you amuse me and you color my black.**
they live as they are lit, they soar as they have been ignited,
they glow but they cannot stay long.
they remind me of pinocchio and they remind me of the stars.

Little Pinocchio stars.
Live for the moment.
Drama of the fireworks display.

-^--^__^---------------------*heartbeat gone*

'Saging Lang Ang May Puso' a line i heard from a local song when i went down to buy my pepperoni hotdog bun. ( it had a very annoying but catchy tune to it)
It reminded me of the president. Bagay sa kanya tong song na to'.
Compared to a banana, yes its true. 'Saging lang ang may puso.'

6th bday

Belated Happy Birthday to my brother, Franz Zoe Stoelzl.
It seemed not so long ago when you referred to 'chocolate' as 'ko-ke-ke'.
And 'butiki' as 'bo-ke-te'. and now you're a speech and grammar O.C.

Hiram na mukha.

Im not always doubtful about the government, am i? Maybe I am. We all know of the explosion last Friday at Glorietta 2 which killed 11 people and got a hundred more injured.First they said it was an LPG tank, then it was a bomb and that they have found remains of a bomb. When the people started pointing a finger towards the President who was suspected in dire need of this kind of distraction from the rising controveries she is drowning in and the impeachment still boiling against her, and there have been speculations that the government was behind the bombing so the President can call for emergency power and maybe shield herself from the impeachment being cooked for her, the authorities reversed the findings, saying the whole thing was an accident and no deliberate foul play happened. If that is the case, then it sure backfired a little earlier than calculated, because now the people are digging deeper if the government in anyway had something to do with the explosion. The latest culprit the authorities in charge have declared aside from 'deodorant' (which made a lot of radio announcers chuckle in shame for the authorities), is that the explosion was triggered by the combination of a diesel depot and a faulty sewerage system that releases methane produced by human waste, which when combined will become explosive (which can be possible in fairness - but it just seems like they are just trying to come up with a logical explanation that will suit the situation rather than deliver the truth- or im just very skeptic.. ) but nope, they did not find any bomb remains anymore and no there was no LPG tank involve. However,I still dont trust the judgement. Period. Maybe if it was all an honest mistake, the authorities should have waited until all has been finalized before they faced the media so their judgement would seem reliable and they wouldnt have to retract anything or add anything.

If it was the negligence on the part of AYALA LAND, or if it was the conspiracy behind what we know of as the government, who knows. The government and even the media can write and state a different version and we could all fall for it. I even saw one Newspaper with the headline "MINOR FIRE IN GLORIETTA"- the roof blasted off, the escalator collapse, it was like a shooting star just fell from the sky and a big crater was evident and people were seriously injured and some even died on the spot, was that MINOR FIRE?. The President even shopped at Glorietta afterwards to prove the safety of the mall was once again restored already and advised everyone to 'move on' now. Move On like it was nothing. That's always been your strategy. "Me cheated in the elections?" Move on. "my husband is corrupt?" Move on "my son is corrupt?" move on. "i gave early christmas gifts to Congress people?" move on. "who died?" move on. If your whole family died in one same instant, can the people of this country say the same thing to you? "move on" like it was nothing. Or if we say, please stop being the president and just move on...will you take it?

Its always been a puzzle kung kanino ka humiram ng mukha. If you are innocent in this case, and in any case the people have thrown at you, im sorry. But if you are guilty, i fall down to my knees, bow ako sa yo, ang kapal ng mukha mo. wala ka pang puso. will the real slimshady please stand up. im sorry hindi ako aktibista. i just dont think you are a good president.

iipisin kita

Nightmare Nightmare Nightmare! Imagine...IPIS/COCKROACH/ROACH na kasing laki ng buong braso ko? Wish come true. Kakasabi ko lang Id rather dream yung mga usual dreams ko na horror. Que Horror naman talaga. IPIS! na kasing laki at haba ng buong braso ko. I cannot remember the whole of my dream last night, but i cannot forget the IPIS part. It was on my way and I just cant walk through. Yumuyuko yuko pa. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaahhhAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! Ganyan kahaba ang AAAaaaHHhhh!! kasi talagang Aaaahhhh! Talagang Pumasok sa isip ko, F#*k Please wag ka lumipad sa akin. Thankfully may lumabas na white dog na kasing laki lang nung ipis, kinain niya yung ipis, nakalabas pa nga yung antenna from his mouth habang naka look back lang siya sa akin. And I was slightly relieved tapos yun wala na akong maalala. Pag gising ko, ang una kong naisip "anu Kayang meaning ng dream na yun?' second thing na naiisip ko ' Thank you Lord for Baygon -talagang Imagine a world without Baygon' I cant.

bwisit...Wala namang ganun kalaki di ba. or siguro mga 100 million years ago pa kung meron man...

Ipis- the enemy talaga yan. Hitsura pa lang the enemy na. I learned na favorite nila ang mga fingernails, and eyelashes, eh bakit di na lang kayo tumira sa beauty parlor?. Mag snack on kayo sa basurahan dun. Nocturnal beings who follow the invisible patterns of our breaths when we sleep. So pag stable na ang breathing natin, they'll positively assume that we are already asleep and then valiantly gagapang na sila. It is also said that once a cockroach survived a roach-killing spray, that cockroach and its offsprings will develop some type of immunity, thus the need to improve our roach sprays from time to time. I learned all that from Discovery Channel years ago. hahaha oo kasi "know your enemy". I also learned recently that most of the Ipis here in Manila are from the family of the American cockroach, Periplaneta americana. The photo of the cockroach above is from the family of Australian Cockroach. Shit noh, may mga lahi pa. If you didnt know, which i think you do already, in some places, they keep ipis as pets. (whaaaat, naubusan na ba ng aso at pusa sa mundo?)

And in some, kahit ata dito sa Pilipinas, its a delicacy. Hindi po ako nag iinarte manong/manang, pero patayin niyo na lang ako sa gutom. Okay lang kung may ipis mga 5-10 ft away or biglang napadaan na ipis bearable pa yun, ang definitely hindi okay, ay may ipis sa akin mismo. NoooOOo. Yes, as you probably know by now, Im not your fear-factor girl -' fear is not a factor for me'....because "fear is a factor for me."

fyi: Ipis Population are one of the leading causes for asthma and other bronchial problems and they are efficient disease carriers since they can survive from generations to generations.

One Fun Rainy Morning.

Pababa pa lang ako ng bus, nagbla-blog na ang utak ko. :) If it wasnt coincindental and if i was only a little more malicious, id say mashadong sexual ang mag-bus. Before you get to the door, kung kanino kaninong katawan, tiyan, pwet ang makakadikit mo for atleast 1 and a quarter seconds each. But its been raining since yesterday, so inspite of the feel-and-walk going on, Im still lucky to have caught the bus ride today, yesterday nag taxi ako, bleeding na naman ang budget, imagine instead of only 18-19 pesos, if i take a taxi ride again, it will cost 120-130 pesoses, depende pa yan kung si manong driver-sweetlover ay hindi mag papadagdag meaning "ma'am plus 50 pesos po, malayo po yun, di po kasi ako dun papunta" aba. may pupuntahan na pala tong mga taxi na to, bakit di na lang sila naging private use na lang. Sa loob loob ko "hay...namasada pa kayo".

Kanina, the bus was almost full so i had to take my seat way at the back of the bus. I already know dun pa lang that i will have to battle my way out later pag dating sa bus stop destination ko. And I did. Im looking for the floor where i can take my next step and all i could see were asses against asses 'Nagkalat ang mga lalaking J.Lo sa bus na to'. "excuse me po, makikiraan lang" can i blame them? masikip lang talaga. I have to thank 'Inertia',a law of force and reaction tama ba? The lady behind me is literally pushing me like a grocery cart. Finally I got out the bus and opened my black hellokitty umbrella. Ashoosh, pilay ang umbrella ko. Sira na. While i was fixing it, Another lady wearing a beige bank teller uniform opened hers and fed me a part of her umbrella. Sakto talaga sa bibig ko, hindi ko alam kung maiinis ako.. pero masisi ko ba siya kung maliit lang siya at pagbukas ng payong niya sumakto sa bibig ko. So i just let it go. Partly i wanted to say, "thanks for the breakfast, pero kumain na ako" ;)
Flavor: Wet dripping Maroon Umbrella
Taste: like Wet Rubber Tires (not like i ever tasted one before, na visualize ko lang)

Eventhough its raining, may nagpakain sa akin ng payong, and pilay ang payong ko, and bad hair day ako kasi hindi ko napatuyo ng maayos ang hair ko, i told myself to look at the bright side (although madilim dilim ang morning) hindi pa ako late for work. So i was walking towards our building when a car passed by....SPLASHED. Nagswimming ang mga paa ko. Do you know that squishy feeling when there's water in your shoes? Exactly. Look at the bright side pa rin, at least the splashed only reached my feet and not my whole celestial body. Ahem. :) repeat after me : Celestial body. hahaha ;p

Its been a fun morning. Lets see how the rest of the day goes. :)

My Girl

Saturday Night: My Girl marathon.

Ryan: isa siguro sa most prized possession mo yang DVD na "My Girl".

And I just smiled.

OMgulay talaga. I am head over heels for this series. Its my favorite korean series for life. Its funny, its very badong, and there is no boring moment. Tatawa ako iiyak ako, ay nako.. Yoo-Rin gives me happy headaches and Gong Chan cramps my heart. Jung woo makes it hard for me to be entirely happy for Yoo rin and Gong Chan. I swear matutulog na lang ako, affected pa ako. I have watched it before, re-watched it again and again and everytime, i ple-play ko siya, it feels like hindi ko pa napanuod kahit kelan, ang corny ko talaga, kinikilig pa rin ako. Im helpless.

Kung si Yoo rin may Gong chan, ako may Gong-gong ;p hahaha